its not everyday..:)

Wala lang..:) went online kaninang umaga.. tapos my stat was..

"I'll love you forever and not a day less..:)"

i was hesitating pa nga to make it my stat coz it was too cheesy!!!:) tapos nagulat ako.. he changed his stat to..

"I'll love you forever and not a minute less..:)"

wala lang.. cheessy much..:) its not everyday my boyfriend becomes cheesy..:) i miss him sooo soooo much!!..:(

-A

i said its okay...:|

weirdopot: baby
weirdopot: d ko sure kung pupunta ako ha
weirdopot: halimbawa matapos lahat na gagawin ko
*ah-ah*: opo..
weirdopot: pero hindi ko sure na papayagan ako
weirdopot: sinasabihan na ako ni mama e
*ah-ah*: its okay lang po i understand..
weirdopot: and tama naman xa
*ah-ah*: sorry..
weirdopot: hindi naman lahat ng okastyon dapat andun ako
*ah-ah*: i know po.. walang lang.. i just want you to be there.. but its okay, i understand namn po ea.. sorry kung nappglitan kna ni tita..

yan.. need i say more..:( he's invited to my cuzins debut on friday kasi.. tapos ayan..:( wala lang... bottom line...

i just really really want him to be there.. and most of all i just want to be with him..:(

well,, wala akong magagawa.. ganun tlga ea.. tapos biglang parang ang cold na niya bigla after..:( err.. maybe he felt na super pinipilit ko.. pero un nga.. i just wanna be with him lang nmn ea..:( but i understand him naman ea.. that's just the way it goes..:| oh well..:|

One thing i got to admit to marie kanina lang is that.. wer (me and boyfriend) okay naman ea.. but for me.. i miss having to be cuddled right there in his arms..

i miss his hugs..:( i really do..:(

-A

Surpriseeee i loove!!:)

May 24, 2009!:)

We celebrated Rose's bday at Brads, Harbor Square!:) Rose is my couzins girlfriend for about 6 years now!:) ayiie!:) so there.. at first, she invited me about two days before the event!! saying

BRING YOUR SIGNIFICAN OTHER!

haha.. eh sino pa bang significant other ko! haha.. malamang si boyfriend!!:) so i told him, pero Rose said that meeting time would be 10pm!! oh ha!! so parang for me!! obviously he wont be able to come na!! coz super late na yun for him!:) so ayun.. i still told him na pilitin niya pumunta..:)

May 24, whole day i was doing errands here and there.. Skul. Home. Wilcon alabang. Wilcon filinvest. Home. Tondo. Rembrant. Tondo. Bahay. oh dba!! yan ung mga whereabouts ko dat day!! We had practice for Zhie's cotillion ksi!! kya from there i went home pa!! tska wala akong dalang damit!! so ayun.. wen i got home.. "BOYFRIEND" was constantly texting me and asking things about my lakad.. so ako, cge sagot lang.. concerned boyfriend daw..:) haha.. kaso, medyo masyado ng nagind detailed ung questions niya!! kaya nakakuha ako ng hint na he was there!! haha!! like he was constantly asking kung asan na ako,, or ung mga kasama ko asan na.. or wat time ung meeting namen, and where.. mga ganun.. bsta..

ooh.. it came to my mind when he asked me, kung asan na ako.. tapos ang rep ko coastal plang.. ang rep niya..

ang layooo mo paaa... text mo sila kung asan na sila..:)

parang akooo WHYYYY??.. haha

tska he kept on texting me.. text ko daw sya pag malapit na ako..

parang akoo.. WHYYYYY ulet??!! haha

SO i got the hint, pero i didn't actually thought much about it!! kasi im quite sure na umaasa lang ako!! haha!!! ayoko nga kasi umasa!! so there.. tapos he texted me..

"ay alam ko iniisip mo, iniisip mo nasa harbor ako noh?!!"

i replied..:

"HENDE!! haha.. ayoko umasa! wag mo kong paasahin!! masakit un!! haha.."

hahahahaha!!! pero deep inside umaasa nga ako!! kasi all the signs was there!!:) haha.. pagbaba ko ng car.. medyo i was looking around for him.. pero i was not keeping my hopes up!! i was toning it down!! kasi nga

MASAKIT KAYA MADISSAPPOINT!!

haha.. una kong nakita si ate clich and dano and ate che,, pero somehow, on my peripheral view(WOW!! GUMAGANUN) nakita ko ung watch nya by the "poste" wahaha!! pagkakiss ko kela ate.. paglingon ko!!

HE WAS THERE!! HE WAS SO THERE!!:)

haha.. at ang nasbi ko lang ay!! ay!! i forgot!! haha.. its either

"Bat ka anditoo!!!??(TODO SMILE)" or "Anong ginagwa mo ditooo!!!??(TODO SMILE pa rin)"

haha!! so ayun!! takas lang daw siya!! he told his mom na labas daw siya, magcocomp shop!! kaso nkhalata daw sila tita kasi nakabag sya and rubbershoes..!! so sbi niya bka dumaan siya smen!! haha!!

So there, HE CAME! and He just conquered me!! haha..*cheezy much!!* it so made my night!! PERFECT!:) haha.. i soo love him!!:) he stayed for about 30 minutes lang kasi if he stayed much longer.. late na siya lalo makkauwe.. tapos malalagot siya kay tita!! haha.. gano man katagal un!! or gano kaiksi ung time.. HE CAME!! PERIOD!! its all that counts!! thats wat matters to me!:) i was taken off guard again!! he soooo knows how to make me happy!! he soo knows it!!:) he is so my boyfriend!! and i soo love him!!:)

I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH boyfriend!!:)

-A

Secret!:) *kilig*

Last Wednesday, May 20.. we watched angels and demons with his friends.. Ida & Bob, Anne & Kim.. Triple date? yes! haha..:) The movie was great.. tapos when we were just hanging outside.. yosi break for the guys!! he gave me this piece of bond paper.. and this was wats written inside.. or must i say xeroxed!! haha

*kiligkiligkilig* haha!! they got bored daw sa work so ayan.. napagtripan!! haha.. xempre kilig ever ang lola niyo!! wahaha!! wala lang just charing.. napasmile lang ako.. haha.. tapos he has another one pero pinagtripan lang nila ung baluktot na pinky ni bob!! ahaha.. tapos, when they asked what was written in the other paper.. pinakita ko sknila yan.. then ayun.. nagasaran na sila ida, bob and him.. and super tawanan lang kme...:) haha *kiligkilig* ever pa rin!! haha

and TODAY!! I got to look at his austrailia pictures kanina lang sa FB.. haha!! and i realizaed one thing!! ang kyut ng boyfriend koo!! haha.. kht ako natatawa sa sarili ko!! haha.. and i do hope no one says anything about this blog!!

WHAT YOU READ HERE.. STAYS HERE!!

haha!! SECRET sya!! kasi i know how much he'll bug me for saying how cute he is!! haha!! yun paa!! haha i dont even know what came to me!! haha.. imagine me saying how cute my boyfriend is!! haha.. its really funny!! i was really strucked by his cuteness and got inspired in writing this blog!! oh ha!!:)) haha

There.. some of the pictures i really liked!! haha.. that's a pik of him with his brother making fun of their sister. and the other picture is with her mom.. haha his so kyut!! and my favorite picture is right here:..

haha!! his so kyut tlga!! parang bata!! wahaha!! well, maybe i just miss him.. the fact that we haven't seen each other for about 2 days?.. haha!! sabaw!! lately kasi we've been spending a lot of time together tapos biglang walaa!! haha.. im not complaining.. his busy with his ojt and all.. and well,, missing each other is a good thing!!:) i know it is!:) wala lang.. yun lang!!:) haha

-A

Momentssssssssssssssss..:)

May 16
My parents 21st anniversary!!:) yey!! They've always been the sweetest pair of parents i have seen!! haha.. (and i currently can't finish my blog coz im so hooked up in reasearching why Chad Michael Murray and Hilarie Burton wont be in OTH season 7..:( ang sad!! ONE TREE HILL wont be one tree hill without lucas and peyton!!!!:( errr) Anyweiz! im back! haha.. and i have been lucky to have been blessed to have them!!:) It's like their love, its overflowing.. its mature!:) yes, they fight, wait, they dont have fights,, they have this petty TAMPUHANS!! haha.. Their Love, its unconditional!!:) Someday, i want my married life to be like that, Strong, Pure, Unconditional, Faithful, HAPPY, and just to add for it to be perfect, i want it to be that SWEET..:) May 16, was also the day Diddy's phone got broken, and globe decided to take it for fixing.. so wala xang phone for 1 month..:( waa..

May 17
He found a way!!:) yey!!. He used his old N95 phone..:) My parents left for Marinduque that day.. and here's a sweet story a bout my parents:

We were eating dinner.. and my dad decided to eat chocolates.. and he can't finish it.. so asked me and Zhie, my cuz, if we want to eat it.. we said no.. coz we were really full na.. Then my dad asked mom to eat it.. and SHE SAYS:

Oh cge, bsta galing sayo.. tatangapin ko.. kaya ikaw, wag ka magrereklamo na mataba akooo.. ikaw ang salarin.. kinakain ko lang binibigaaaay mo...:)

haha.. tawa kme ng tawa. ang kulet ni mommy!! hahaha.. anyweiz, so there.. they left na for duque..:) tapos,, ayun.. that night!! its the Beauty of Technology! haha.. first time we chatted with WEBCAMS!! haha.. and that's the only time i found out that he had a haircut!! haha.. oh dbaa!! wahaha.. i didn't even know he had a haircut!! haha.. anyweiz, so i was helping him analyze his assignment(Analyzing Jose Rizal Poems) haha.. ang deep!! nosebleeeeed tlgaa!! haha.. tapos,, nagulat ako.. pagtingin ko ulet dun sa window niya for webcam..

he was holding this paper.. saying " i ♥ you".. ayieee!! *KILIG*KILIG* ever moment!!

haha.. imagine!! yung boyfriend ko gumaganun!! haha:)) Simple, Cliche, overrated but sooooo SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEETTT!!:) and i just LOOOOOVE ITT!!:)

May 18
Scheduled Filipsy exam.. All of us in our class are all scared of failing. kasee..:( super terror ni SIR *****..:( sya ung terror sa Psyc Dept..:( eaa.. tapos, tinatakot pa niya kme..:( pano daw kme papasa kung ganito at kesyo ganito.. waa..:( After researching for articles for extra points.. went to tondo for practice at Zhie's house!! haha.. BOYHUNTING!! haha!! missed doing it with zhie! haha...:)) again, Boyfriend was uber duper texting, and sweet and all..:) haha

May 19
TODAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!! Went to school to pass articles and got to bond with my fellow psych Orgmates..:) NAgcommute ako pauwe!! abaaah!! haha.. sira kasi ung pajero..:( waa.. so i was in the bus.. tapos he texted na diretso na ako kela bert!! eh, dapt sa bhy ako uuwe ea! haha.. so dumiretso ako kela bert.:) tapos andun sila ida and anne with bert and him..syempre.. He bought me a shirt!! haha.. hinelp niya ksi si bert makabenta!! haha.. and syempre!! hapon na hapon!! we drank THE BAR!! haha.. Si Nina sumunod and Shin(nde ko sure spelling) gf ni bert andun na din by the time we started drinking...!! haha..

WE ALL GOT BANGAG!!!! haha.. 3 bottles of THE BAR!!..

waaa!! kamusta nmn yun!!:) super twanan with the girls.. nagkaisyu kasi kay bert and gf..!! haha.. laht kme natako kay shin! haha.. kasi nmn.. long story!! and not my story to tell.. bsta she's a scary gf! haha..:)) sbi nga ni anne sken, buti daw d ako ganun kay empol! haha!!! sbi ko bhla sya.. buhay niya yun ea!! haha:)) tapos nina said, sinasbi ko lang daw un kasi wala sya nung time na un.. haha!! tawa lang kme ng tawa.. kasi basag na kme laht..:)

and Nina, was all mushy with us, kasi niloloko niya kme dun sa quote ko na "when i asked for happines, God gave me you.." and i was just smiling.. and Diddy said.. something like..

"Ganun tlga yun.. Iba ea.."

haha.. wala lang.. momoment akoo!! haha

Around 5:30-6, we went home na.. he made hatid sken.. tapos bigalng bumalik!! kasi namn!! 1000 na buo ung pera niya!! walng barya!! kamusta nmn un!! haha.. we slept and ate ruffles pagkagising!! haha.. kasi he needs to go home by 7!!:) and his basag na din! haha.. we decided to part ways na,, para mas makatulog ng maayos.. true enough!! i slept till 11pm!! haha.. and sya.. feel ko bukas na yun magigising!! haha.. and

YES I PASSED FILIPSY!! HAHA!!!! wohooo!! and summer class is officially over!!:)

So there you goo!! yan!! yan ang buhay ko for the past 4 days!! goodmornyt!!:)

-A

WARNING: CHEEZY!!:)

and i just can't wait to blog!:) haha im suppose to fix my stuff, for i will be going to cavite tommorow for my immersion for 3days!! well!! what the hell!!:) haha..

SO here goes, 1st of all.. i would like to say!! that o5.o8.o9 will surely be one of the bestest anniversary i could ever have..:) TRUE TRUE TRUE!!:) can you feel my happiness..?:) i hope you do..:) here it goes..

o5.o7..
No class for me.. I was suppose to read my articles for FILIPSY exam the next day, but i opted not to!! WHY?.. to spend time with him!! he said we will be having lunch! and though ive eaten lunch na!! i still went out with him kahit umuulan!! ay, EFFORT ko ha! haha.. He/him(whatever! ahha) together with Bob, picked me up at 7-11 @ Bf Resort and we went to Anne's house.. their friend, Ida(Bob's girlfriend), Melvin and Nina were there.. We just let the time pass by cuddling ang making kulet with his friends..:) he was really sweet and all.. tapos he made comment to my notes pa sa FB! haha.. himala tlga..:) that's when i got excited and all..:)

11:23pm.. he texted!:) he told me na

wag daw muna ako matulog..:)

nung una may nasesense na ako!! pero sbi ko mukhang malabo ung naiisip ko! ahha.. ung una.. i thought he'd be coming!(expectations nga naman!!) but hell no!! it was raining cats and dogs that time!! (naks gumaganun!) haha.. tapos i thought na maybe he'd weyt till 12 to greet me!! but i thought!! weh!!! 11:30 pa nga lang tulog na yun ea!! kung di man!! TINUTULUGAN NIYA AKOO!! haha..

so we kept on texting.. i lost track of time! when he replied me this message..:)

Baby 12:02 n sken happy 1st annv, looking 4ward to our 2nd 3rd 4th nd many many more. u

haha!! WARNING!: THIS IS GOING TO BE CHEESY!! so i replied with this!

Aww! Tsk! Naunahaaaan mo koooo!o haha.. Aww.. happy 1st anniversary diddy kou me too, i want my forever to be with you, you, you, and only youu i love you so much diddy kou mwahmwahmwahso

told yah!! so there.. he replied with

Ay xsend aq knina! u haha joke lng me too baby i waaant u to be wid me till 4ever. u

haha!! Yun! chumecheesy ung boyfriend kooo!! haha so ayan!! hanggang dyan nlng! so we said our goodnights na and all..:) that was a first!! First na naghintay siya mag12 to greet me!! ahaha.. yes namn:) and nakatulog ako ng NAPAKAHIMBING na may NGITI sa aking mga LABI!:) haha

o5.o8
When i woke up! i texted him agad!:) ayoko na ilagay coz its really cheezy! ahaha!! and woah!! he replied!! usualy he doesnt reply to my morning texts ea..:) haha.. so ayun!!

11:25pm he texted me kung asan na daw akoo.. sbi ko bahay.. pero about to leave na!! and he said!! na saby daw siya sken papuntang office niya.. on the way kasi!!:) and of course, i want every opportunity to be with him!!:) SYEMPRE!!!:D haha.. sp i said yes!! he came!! and ayun, went to get take out from mcdo coz he haven't eaten lunch tapos dropped him off sa may office niya..:)

haha!! this picture was really funny!! coz he doesnt want to take pictures or something cos his really having a bad headache!! kasi napuyat!! ahahaha:)) tapos pag sbi ko eaaa!! sabay pumose!! ahdik!! haha..:D

So there.. right after class i went home agad.. All this time i thought he'd be working para sa OJT niya.. and i was hoping that right after.. he'd be coming sa bahay.. then we'll figure out wat to do!!:) tapos.. so 6 passed by.. i didn't text him kasi maybe his busy with his ojt and all.. coz he wasn't replying sa mga text ko na im home and all..:) tapos err!! 6:30 na!! wala pa rin!! so itexted him!!! asking if he'll still be going!! taposno reps.. arounf 6:45 i texted him ulet

"Diddy?"

my usual text when his not replying.. 7:01pm.. he texted me na!!

Baby kakagcng q lng, paalam aq kay mama.

err!! to be honest! i got kinda pissed off! or inis siguro!! ksi... err!! i want to spend time with him kasi dba!! tapos i was thinking that tita might not let him go na.. kasi its already 7pm plus umuulan paa!! err.. i didnt reply.. sa inis..:( pero deep inside.. of course im still hoping he'd come..:( tapos, naisip ko pa.. i gave him his gift na kxe kaninang morning.. kaso d niya dinala kasi mahahassle siya.. so sbi nga nya later this afternoon na nga lang daw pagnagkita kme.. sa isip ko pano na yung gift ko!! naiisip ko pa.. pag d xa natuloi,, hahayaan ko xang kunin niya ung gift niya dito sa bahay! bhala sya!! i really got kinda pissed!:(

and then i lost TRACK OF TIME!!!..

We were eating dinner. tapos.. medyo nagkakamay pa ako!!! we were eating chicken wings! YUMMY!! nung tapos na ako mageat! patayo na ako at dadalhin ko na ung plates ko sa may lababo.. tita teased me na "pag ako d nagasawa" its a myth thingy! bsta un! so binalik ko ung plate ko laughing and all.. so nakatayo ako!! i was licking may fingers.. and when i turned my head...

He was walking up the stairs with a bouquet of flowers!!! haha! i didn't know what to do!!! haha!! kasi parang lahat sila andun,, may tita's and lil girl cuzins' tapos lahat sila nagrereact naaa!! haha.. and the 1st words that came out of my mind and mouth was..!!

MAY GANUN!!

haha... ayun!! so nafefeel niyo ba yung feeling ko na i didn't know what to do.. one second i was licking my fingers kasi ang sarap nung food then the next thing happens, my boyfriend comes in with a bouquet of flowers!! in fairness!! ngaun BOUQUET naa!! ahha..:) LOVED IT!!:) sooo much!!

so there.. we went to ruins to buy dvds and all.. tapos went home we ordered pizza!! kasi inaasar siya nila tita!! kasi the kids saw us have a SMACK kiss!! and they were teasing us!! so suhol daw dapat!! haha.. i wanted yellowcab nlng!! kaso he want pizzanero!! yung malaking pizza!! ahaha!! so ayun!! pagdating super bloated sila kasi d nila maubos!! haha.. sbi ko gusto niyo ng pizza ha!! haha..

Afterwards, we watched slumdog millionaire!!:) haha.. nung una kasama nmn mga kids but they got bored! haha.. so i was left wit him and my lil brother na tinapos yung movie!!:) just cuddled. and hug and eeeehh!! cheezzzyy eaaa...:) bsta ayun..:) and i was so kulet!! kasi of course i want pictures!! kasi syempre its a special day and plus im soo happy.. so super kinukulet ko sia tlga ng picturreee!! haha

afterwards.. i gave him my gift na.. yung boardshorts and the tumbler!! haha.. pagkabigay ko ng boardshorts.. i said!!

Try mo kung kasya, pag di kasya ipilit mooo!! pag di pa rin!! MAGPAPAYAT KA NA!!

and tawa sya ng tawa!! haha nung una.. he saw the size!! sbi niiya d daw kasya!! haha.. sbi koo!! eaaa,, magpapapayat ka ngaaa!! haha.. tapos he tried na making it ikot sa leeg niyaa... hahaha.. kasya daaaw! ahha.. sana ngaa!!

tapos.. nung tinuro ko ung tumbler!! sbi koo..

tingnan mo yaaaan!! wag mo sbhing baduy ako.. at cheeeeeeeesy akkooo!! alam ko na yun!!

haha.. tapos tawa siya ulet ng tawa.. and he said.. he'll look at it when he gets home..:) tapos, he said thank you for the gifts.. tapos,, he said goodbye to arj sa room,, nakita ko ulet ung flowers.. tapos i said thank you for it.. sabay HUUUUG...:) haha so, kuya and i made him hated sa jabbee bf pillar!! haha.. to spend more time hanggang pauwe?... haha:D but before he went home!! haha.. syempre kinulet ko nnmn siya ng picture!! haha..:D yey!! dami namen pictureee!:)

so there, when he got off.. i was suppose to text him when i get home... tapos abah!! tanan!! haha

Baby thanks po 4 d nyt. hehe. u i really really really love you. u happy anniversary ulet. u

gulat me! coz ako usually ang unang nagtetext pagnaghihiwalay kme! haha.. so agen..:) it made me smile!! simple pero special!! ayiiie!! haha.. so i replied..

Aww.. i love you too so so much pou and for the record, thank you po for making me really really really happyu.. so happyu Happy anniversary diddy kooou..

CHEEZY much?.. haha..when i got home.. i was suppose to text him.. pero naunahan niya nnman akkoooo!!!

im home na, thanks sa thumbler, super lyk it.u hehe love you baby.u

YEY!! haha.. first of all!! haha.. i thought mababaduyan sya and all!! pero he liked it!! yey tlgaa!! so there.. i replied back na gamitin niya dapat yun and said i love you more! haha..nde ko na lalagay dito!! kasi ang cheezy tlga!!:)

so there,, that's how my anniversary day went,,:) i can say, its everything i hoped for. nothing elegant, nothing classy,, simple but very memorable..:) like they say, sometimes its the simplest things that are worth remembering..:)

and truly i am so blessed and lucky to be loved by him..:) he is truly my HAPPINESS..:)

i asked for HAPPINESS, GOD gave me YOU..:)

I LOVE YOU MARK PAUL DE LOS REYES TERRAZOLA!:)

-A

i got so kilig eh..:)

I posted this.. well, primarily because i got so killig!:) haha... i want to say more!! but i have to study!!! haha.. so for now.. eto nlng muna..:) i shall blog again tommorow!! for sure..:D

1. Who are you? empol
2. Are we friends? were lovers :)
3. When and how did we meet? you texted me :) October 5
**haha!! he forgot!! its suppose to be OCTOBER 6!.. guess what nakipagargue pa xa sken! haha but in he end!! he realized that he was wrong!! kainis!! haha.. tawa ako ng tawa!! inaway niya pa ako! haha
4. Do you have a crush on me? i love you :)
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. baby :)
6. Describe me in one word. payat :)
7. What was your first impression? wow chix
8. Do you still think that way about me now? yeah
9. What reminds you of me? ur smell
10. If you could give me anything what would it be? my love
11. How well do you know me? kilalang kilala
12. When's the last time you saw me? kanina :)
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? wala
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you? nope
15. What is my best attribute? lahat :)
16. What is your best memory of me lahat din :)

haha!! wala lang!! i just got so kilig!!:) well.. for my friends,, you know him!! his not this kind of person!!! haha!! his sweet!! yes, pero that is so SOMETIMES!! haha.. and one of that sometime was today!!:) haha.. STOP NOW!! i need to study!! err!! tomorow!!:)

-A

Why all the effort for her?

i was suppose to post this yeesterday.. but then i just thought that i should sleep nlng rather than pour all my feelings out on my blog.. yes, im having a rough time now.. with my boyfriend.. well, its hard to admit that im the one who has the issues and all.. but its not entirely all my fault.. it all started with the "D.C." girl thing in facebook. i dont want to broadcast her name out coz it would be unfair to her.. so here goes.. this girl.. D.C... he said he courted her before.. and yes he admitted it to me.. and he even added kxe daw she's cute.. so as the "not-so-jealous"(YOU THINK?) girlfriend.. i just said okay...

So they started putting wall posts on each others profile.. so okay.. i didnt actually made a big fuzz bout it yet.. but then nyt before his bday.. Pum PMed me..! and she said she noticed D.C. and my boyfriend doing all the wall post thingies..!! then she said that she'd do something to make the girl feel guilty!! haha. i dont know why she hates D.C. so much. maybe because of the fact that my friend Gene, also courted D.C. before.. and now that she''s with Karen.. D.C. about a months ago, also had contact with Gene! ahah.. but xempre as the goodie two shoes girl.. i said no!! behave Pum! haha.. errr!!

So i got so curious why Pum was kinda pissed off.. So i started reading their posts!! and hell yeah!! that's when i started feeling bad..:( i felt that maybe there realy is something..:( the thing is.. HE.. my boyfriend. is putting all that time and effort to post thingies on her wall!! okay! i admit i started to get jealous!!

and jealousy sucks BIG TIME!!:(

Yesterday was May 2,, i wanted to make her bday special despite the fact that im feeling something wrong..:( so, right before he went to work.. i told my couzin to drop off my gifts for him at his work.. so he'll be surprised when he arrives there.. so ayun.. he said Thank you baby..u at that time, for me, at least he said thank you and maybe he did like it.. but then, when i got to school. Marie asked what happened.. tapos she said.. ano ba yan wala man lang i love you! so ayun!! it struck me! bat nga ba wala!!..:( so kay.. hinyaan ko na.. but the feeling didn't go away.. plus the jealousy i felt for the D.C. pa.. :( i told Franz that i was jealous about this girl and all.. and about the wall post thingies! and what he said was.. at least his not hiding it or something.. and yes.. he has a point there.. but still kxe..:( girl instinct ea..:(

On my way to drop by sa work niya,, we were texting and all.. i dont want to put all the details na.. coz it will be so long.. but the point is.. ang bully niya promise..:( when we saw each other.. i cnat hide the fact that i was sad..he was hyper and all.. and yes, he noticed i was sad.. pero he was still hyper.. Geyb, said maybe he wanted to cheer me up.. maybe.. and then, he even joked that seroiusly daw wala daw xa sa anniv namen.. thats when i felt i was about to cry.. but then,, i really tried not to.. its his bday and i dont want to make a scene. so i just said,,

"nde ko alam kung bkt ang bully bully mo ngaun.." naiinis ako sayo"..

tapos i was smiling kxe nga pinipigilan ko srili ko umiiyak.. tapos sbi niya.. may naiinis ba na nakasmile..? tapos makulit parin xa and all. sbi ko ako.. so ayun.. we said our goodbyes.. okay nmn.. pero i still tried to hide what i was feeling..

Dinner later that night at his house daw.. tapos before he went home, dapt dadaanan niya ako sa bhay, kaso guess what!! nakalimutan niya akong daanan!! nagmamadali daw sila ng mom niya! okay sige! fine!! on my way to his house.. bigla syang nagprisinta na susunduin niya ako sa may starbucks!! na aprang okay.. umeffort?.. haha.. when we got to his house.. buti nlng andun ung lola and lolo niya.. who made me feel oh so welcomed.. tapos his dad, mom and tita was so kulet.. tapos her kuya and ate.. said they like the cupcakes i bought him.. hmm.. that night we were okay namn.. i tried to hide what i was feeling coz i know it will ruin the moment.. pero its still there ea.. around 830 umuwe na ako.. he was going to drink with village friends.. it texted him when i got home.. he didnt reply..

when i was about to go to sleep.. he texted and he said he was home na.. at least dba.. tapos aun.. i said na i was about to sleep na and all.. he should rest na kxe his gonna watch the pacquio game today..and i said i love you.. i though he wouldn't reply na.. but then he replied.. he said i love you too..u

today, he said he'll come over.. but then.. wala pa din xa.. and his not texting either.. yes, nagtext sya knina.. na papunta na daw siyang mall and that pacquio won and all.. pero.. nde na xa ulet nagttxt.. im not loosing hope... but im not expecing either..:) kanina.. i went online and guess what!! xa nnmn nauna mag post sa wall ni D.C.!! about an hour ago! nung times na d na xa nagttxt!! hai.. i dont know anymore.. why put all that effort for her dba?.. and good thing toh maybe.. but she didn't replied back.. i dont know.. hai.. is this for real?.. is he really feeling something na ulet for the girl.. or maybe im just over reacting..

i dont know..:(

-A