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im hurting so much i dont know what to say..:(

We stay in love.

Today is August 1 and exactly a year ago me and my boyfriend once decided to go our separate ways. That was a year ago, and now we've never been happier. I can say that as of right now, we're more mature in many ways, more contented and just happier than before. No expectations from each other, no blaming of anything just more understanding and so much love.

For every girl that has gotten her heart broken by a man he loves, she will never totally let go of that feeling of uncertainty that one day it can and will happen again. But when that man decides to love you back more than you'll ever think of, reassure you almost everyday that he loves you, and just making you happy everyday that feeling of uncertainty just flies out the window.

I admit it. For today, it came to me that maybe he's not happy again or his just settling for us. For me. But assuming can lead you to nowhere. Today we went out on a date, and then we just ate out and thats it. I felt that the time wasn't really that enough cause i really missed him. After he dropped me off, he went home and he didn't text me for a while. Yes from there i got to think of our day, and of what he could have been thinking or feeling, remembering what had happened a year ago.

But then he texted me that he had just gotten credits for his phone and that his registering it for unli. I didn't reply coz' somehow i hated it when he does that, when he doesn't take time to let me know man lang that he wouldn't be texting because he has no load. Then he called, telling me that he couldn't register and that he would go online. It was just a simple call but that "i love you" in the end was more than enough to remind me that he really does love me.

For all the things that was bothering me today i asked him if he was happy.:

Me:(stat) for a second the sky was mine.

Him: :*

Him: ill make it last for a lifetime..:)

Me: awww.. i love you..:*

Him: i love you moreeeer..:)

Him: morer is a word ! :*

Me: haha! it is?..:) okaay..:*

Me: Is me boyfriend is happy?..:)

Him: yeeep :)

Him: and youuuuu ? :)

Me: so muuuuch!!! :)

Sometimes we're afraid to ask the questions in our hearts, in our minds but sometimes asking is the best way to let go of that thought. Like asking is closure. Knowing that he's happy was all i needed to know to make all my fears go away.

Being loved truly is something close to seeing magic especially when that person isn't afraid to show you and let you know that you are loved, that you are taken care of, that he cares about you and what you feel. Being with someone like that makes you a lucky person. Therefore i am lucky because im loved by him.:)

Im not saying that we are perfect, because we're not. Im saying that i love him. He loves me. He makes me happy. He's happy. We're happy. And we both choose to stay together.

We stay in love.:)

-A