Baby gcng ka na?u

Last saturaday night me and boyfriend had a real big fight!:( as in fight kung fight! its because we were suppose to meet up the next day for church and lunch. But then, the plans changed because me and my couzins went out for an after party and i have to sleep at the hotel for it will be late na when we finish. By then, i know that we wont be able to pursue our plans of going out. By telling him i wont be able to go out with him the next day.. he got mad..:( really mad..:( i dont want to put the details na but he really got mad.. and somehow he said some harsh things.. not that harsh but still..:( words that hurt me..:( i even cried last night talking to geyb for i dont really know wat to do.:( it was hard for me to know that he doesnt understand my situation.

The thing is, my situation with my parents is really hard. PARENTS can be so complicated! and he can't understand that. I dont know why. i think he understands naman but somehow his still asking for more than that. ewan ko ba..:( err.. so i was kinda pissed off last night that i didnt text him today..:|

I was eating lunch at mcdo and having a heart to heart talk with Pawlin San Mateo!! Thanks dear!! i missed our chikka moments!:) and while i was pouring my heart out, very very must i say verrrrrrrrrrry confused and lost on what will i do!! he texted..

"Baby gcng ka na?u"

yun ea! may smiley pa! parang ako!! what the hell.. Just like that!! so i replied!

"Gcng na po. Mcdo na. May clas po aq knina ea.."

yun din! cold much!! kasi naman noh! i wont pretend im okay wen im not!! and so he replied.

"Tapucn na nten to baby ayoko ng ganto e. kung ikaw gusto m ng gnto bhala k."

Maybe this is the one thing ive been waiting for.. nasumuko sya! haha.. One thing or another i expected he'll get tired din of getting mad and all. just waiting for his sorry. and i think etoh na un.. so ayun.. i asked him if his okay na..? kasi 1 thing, sya lang naman ung naggagalit galitan ea!! haha.. so ayun, he said his okay na!! and guess what!! he insisted na sunduin nya ako today! kasi may dala daw siyang kotse!! abah!! gumaganun!! haha..:)) pero i said na till 6 ako.. ayun! nagback out na!! haha.. oh well.. at least he thought of it right?.. haha!!

Wala lang.. Medyo asar lang ako.. almost 1 and a half day kmeng magkaaway.. tapos ganun lang yun?.. Yes, i admit im glad that its over.. pero super emote emote pa ako!! tapos ganun lang!! haha.. eerrr.. this blog was suppose to be very emotional sharing how i feel and how i am so pissed off at him!!! but here goes. wala na.. konting lambing lang, wala na!! errr!!!

Why are girls so Vulenrable!??? arghhhhhhhhhh

-A

its not everyday..:)

Wala lang..:) went online kaninang umaga.. tapos my stat was..

"I'll love you forever and not a day less..:)"

i was hesitating pa nga to make it my stat coz it was too cheesy!!!:) tapos nagulat ako.. he changed his stat to..

"I'll love you forever and not a minute less..:)"

wala lang.. cheessy much..:) its not everyday my boyfriend becomes cheesy..:) i miss him sooo soooo much!!..:(

-A

i said its okay...:|

weirdopot: baby
weirdopot: d ko sure kung pupunta ako ha
weirdopot: halimbawa matapos lahat na gagawin ko
*ah-ah*: opo..
weirdopot: pero hindi ko sure na papayagan ako
weirdopot: sinasabihan na ako ni mama e
*ah-ah*: its okay lang po i understand..
weirdopot: and tama naman xa
*ah-ah*: sorry..
weirdopot: hindi naman lahat ng okastyon dapat andun ako
*ah-ah*: i know po.. walang lang.. i just want you to be there.. but its okay, i understand namn po ea.. sorry kung nappglitan kna ni tita..

yan.. need i say more..:( he's invited to my cuzins debut on friday kasi.. tapos ayan..:( wala lang... bottom line...

i just really really want him to be there.. and most of all i just want to be with him..:(

well,, wala akong magagawa.. ganun tlga ea.. tapos biglang parang ang cold na niya bigla after..:( err.. maybe he felt na super pinipilit ko.. pero un nga.. i just wanna be with him lang nmn ea..:( but i understand him naman ea.. that's just the way it goes..:| oh well..:|

One thing i got to admit to marie kanina lang is that.. wer (me and boyfriend) okay naman ea.. but for me.. i miss having to be cuddled right there in his arms..

i miss his hugs..:( i really do..:(

-A