Got Hold Off.

Today i passed my requirements to Cebu Pacific. My requirements were complete but i got hold off because my medical results were still not delivered. I found out this morning from my fellow cabin crew applicants that you can see the medical resutls online. When i got home, i viewed my results. That's when i found out that my xray results showed that i have "MILD THORACIC DEXTROSCOLIOSIS". By the word scoliosis, i got scared, really scared for me, and for my application to Cebu Pacific. I researched online and found out that its a minor scoliosis problem wherein one shoulder is lower than the other. That's why i have those kind o f pictures and back pain! :( And now, i am worried that my application to Cebu Pacific would go down the drain because of this. Sad. I still have to wait though of my final medical appointment with the company doctor. I hope they let me through, somehow it grew in me that i really want to pursue this job. All i need to do now is wait.:|

-A

Itsabbysthefaithfullyinlove.tumblr.com

Btw, i made a new tumblr account. I realized i only have blogspot and twitter to pour out all my feelings into it. Blogspot, takes a lot of effort to writing and stuff, Twitter is just for my rants and yeah i do have a Tumblr account but its all just reblogs and my original posts always gets drowned in all the things i reblog. So that's when i decided to make a new one. I never wanted to drop my identifier "Faithfullyinlove." i've been attached to that ever since i thought of it. So, i named my new tumblr account Itsabbysthefaithfullyinlove. I'll be posting photoblogs here. Easy way to do it! Photo + caption + feelings are the things it all needs, ohhh + wifi connection so i can do it straight from my touchy! :) Don't worry i wont be turning my back on blogspot for its where my heart really is, i just hope i find the "kasipagan" to write. hihihihi So that's it i just wanna share my new tumblr account, where all posts would be about me and MY life!:)

-A

I had a dream

I woke up today with tears on my eyes. Why? I had a dream, and its not a good one. It seemed so real that why i woke up crying. My dream went on like this..

We were in a house, we were talking to a friend, Jeri, and she was inviting me and boyfriend to a party somewhere. So i said yes, and i think i really wanted to go, but then boyfriend interrupted and said "Wag na yan, wag ka na sumama. Ano gagawin mo dun? Makakagulo ka lang skn.... JOKE" something like that. He said joke, or was he laughing in the end, teasing me but he was serious about it. I think he just laughed so that i wont be ashamed from our guest. After that, i ignored him and just walked out of the room. I was about to cry when 2 of our friends came in the room, Theo and Minseun, and they said that Babe wanted to talk to me. I went out and we sat on the couch and he talked to me. He said that something like im too pushy on wanting to do things, that ang kapal ng mukha ko.. im really soft when this kind of things happen to me, even in real life. As you know i'm a cry baby. So i cried. I cried really hard, but after like a minute of crying he comforted me naman, saying sorry and i think he hugged me pa. When i was crying in my dream, i kept on thinking that i was gonna blog on what i feel about it. Then i woke up, crying.

It seemed so real. Really real. My dream brought up issues like his bullying me and the thing with him and his friends. Well his bullying, sometimes im still not used to it, his been like that ever since. Sometimes he's really so sweet, but there's also a period when he starts to become so bully and somehow it lasts for a while, but eventually goes back to his sweet side. Well, i guess thats him, i hope he stays on his sweet side much more often..:D hihihi hmm.. well, for his friends. Its not that he prioritizes his friends over me, but sometimes when he's with them, i think he forgets about me. I think. Sometimes, he's so hard to reach and i settle on not making kulit him when he's out with his friends.

Wala lang, for now i guess i miss spending time with him. Yes, we've been seeing each other for couple of hours in a day, but i feel like there's something missing. don't get me wrong, i always have a great time with him but there's this after feeling that something was not there. i dont know what it is. I guess i miss spending quality US time, when its just me and him and us, and where nothing else matters. Well the year's just starting, as i have said, and a lot of things have changed for us or will start to change. I know we'll get through it together. Mark my words, WE WILL. :)

-A

A Valentines Date 2011

Vdate with babe @ Pancake House BF! It was just a typical date date for us, except for the flowers of course. We met up at Toyota, then went to Pancake House for Dinner. He got the Hamburger steak special thingy, and i got the Salisbury steak special, before started eating we really wanted to have desserts but decided to order afterwards so that we would be able to pick from all the delicious food. After eating, we were so full that we said enough of the food please. haha! And the funny part was when he was about to pay the bill, the waiter said that there was a free Valentines Card. We kept on laughing afterwards about it, and i even teased him, that if he wanted to give me a valentines card he shouldnt have made the waiter do it!:P hahaha!! Then we went to ruins and to buy some dvds and then thats when we decided to go home. He had headaches before our date, but still he decided that we push through with our date. I had fun again tonight and it feels good that ur not alone for valentines day!:) o2.14.11

-A

Positivity.

Whenever i have a problem i always try to look onto its positive side. I think thats why i dont get mad as much as any other person does, but one thing, i easily feel down or sad. Well tomorrow is my Graduation! yey finally after how many years ill be making my parents proud! The funny thing is, my dad was even the first one to invite his guests for my grad party when i haven't even invited mine. I think he's really proud to finally have me grauduating. Anyways, he(boyfriend) wont be there tomorrow for my graduation, and i am so much jealous with my friend because her boyfriend would be there once our graduation is finished. I don't wanna be sad anymore. I just want to savor the moment that im finally graduating. Babawi nalang kami ni beb pag balik nya! I SHALL DEMAND OF THIS! AND I SHALL MAKE IT HAPPEN! He owes me that much!:)

Positivity! lets all be happy!:) soo excited for tomorrow!:)

-A

Ang Sad Ko.

Ang sad ko. Ang sad sad sad ko tlga.

As all of you know im having my grad/bday party this sunday. Actually kaya sya sunday is because yun lang ung chance na makakapunta si beb on my party. And its the only way that he can be a part of one of the most important part of my life. And maybe i was wrong to expect too much na makakapunta siya when i know theres a chance that he cant really come, ksi nga nasa palawan sya starting tom till sunday. And i found out kanina lang na gabi pa ung dating nila..:( ayoko naman ipilit pa sknya na dumaan sya sa bhy kasi malamng he's tired from his trip. And i guess im starting to get tired na pilitin maging parte pa sya ng grad ko. Kasi parang super pinipilit ko na maging part sya pero kht anong gawin ko hindi tlga ea.

And another thing, kaya lalo ako nasasad is its because im feeling distant. Ngaun pa na lelessen ung mga text nya when im expecting, actually hoping na mas lambingin nya ako ksi nga super nasasad ako. Nafefeel ko pa na parang he's not making up for it. Parang wala lang sknya. It really is important to me, ayoko lang super ipakita sknya na nasasad ako ksi bka isipin nya nagiinarte ako.:( alam ko naman na its out of his control and i understand because its his family thing.

Err im crying..:,( i want to be okay about it pero nalulungkot tlga ako. Hindi ko mapigilan umiyak.:( i tried telling him about my feelings. Ksi bka sbhin nya ganito pla nararamdaman ko pero hindi ko snsbi sknya. He called when he received my text, he asked why and i said wala lang. Namimiss lang kita..:( tapos parang ngalit pa sya ksi nagising ko siya sa text ko e early pa sya tom. And he put down the phone without even saying i love you.:(

Hai.. Am i over reacting? Overthinking? Expecting too much? I dont know.

-A

Oh my february 1!

Today has been really a uhm.. Great? Not really day! Haha super malas!
1st misfortunate event of the day: i just found out na hindi pa kami cleared sa chem lab! Oh shit tlga! Super BV! So we went all the way to chem lab and then back to accounting to fix the problem. Stressful!

2nd misfortunate event of the day: when i got back to the condo, the sink was still not fixed. Errr i went to the admin and reported it. Luckily i found time to sleep while they were fixing it.

3rd misfortunate event of the day: boyfriend.:( freaking globe's making me sad. I have been texting him eversince lunchtime till late afternoon and ive gotten no replies from him. Err but then he called, he said he cant send messages. Hmp. Hate it but i understand.

4th misfortunate event of the day: while waiting for our driver i decided to go down to rob to look for a grad dress. We went to Maldita and i saw this black dress. It was a little bit formal and looks great for a grad dress. The best part of it is that if shows my curves! Ahaha oh yes i have curves! :) So i decided to buy it, but before paying i saw the sale shirts! sooo i took the ones i liked! and my oh my when i was paying, oooh my! My credit card was EXPIRED na daw! ay grabee tlga! nakakahiyaa!!:( buti nalang mababait sila ate! i had cash but it was not enough! I really wanted to buy, kht yung dress lang! pero the dress was 1399 and my cash was only 1300! super bv! haha.. So sbi ko babalikan ko nlng ung shirts ung shirts on thursday but the dress im not sure na. i went to karimadon and kept looking for a black dress that will cost less than 1300! haha... and thank GOD i saw one! its really nice! love it!:)

and for the record our cars' plate number was gotten by the POLICE! so much! for smoke belching daw! haha.. super malas day!:| buti nlng hindi ako bv! staying positive today! its the 1st day of the month and i wouldnt want to be so nega about it. anyways, Grad practice tom!:) yey!:) its our time to shine! haha:))

-A

Bloging from my itouch

Ooohh im trying this app for my iphone, and if this posts then it works! Haha yey! Im looking for a blog app wherein i can write offline then post it later on. Coz it really takes a lot of effort for me to open and login through my laptop. So i hope this works, so that whenever i want to blog i can do it quickly right here and just post it when theres access to net. Well i hope this works!

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Goodbye January and Hello February!

Hello February!! Today's the first day of the month, the LOVE month to be exact. Somehow i'm a little bit excited for this month, i think its really going to be interesting. But before anything else i would like to write about my January.

January.

It was really an interesting month! The highlights of it all was when he visited me in Marinduque, my birthday(which i really didnt celebrate much), my tita and tito's 25th anniversary wedding, my new ipod touch and the day He came to surprise me.

Visit.

I've already blogged about this one and i still am happy about it. Having to have someone like him who's willing to go the distance just for me. :) o1.o6-o9

Birthday.

Overall, i guess my birthday for this year was really sad. :( I didn't have a party or went out with my friends or such, i stayed home with my family and helped in preparing for my Tita's wedding. And i think the worst part of it all is that he wasnt with me. I guess its true, the saying that even though your in a room full of happy people, but when the one you wanted the most isn't there it feels just empty as it is. And that's how i felt. I was grateful that i was surrounded with my lovely family but it's just ain't complete without him.:( I even cried before my birthday for he was saying sorry that he cant be with me. I know i know, i understand he can make up for it any other day and just make it special, even more special but somehow its just different when he's exactly there with me on the day of my birthday.:( oh well, we just really can't have it all. o1.22

Tita and Tito's 25th Wedding Anniversary.

I just looooove weddings! It reminds me that fairytale's do happen in real life. That love can conquer all. Especially weddings like this, 25th anniversary, 50th anniversary, its a reminder that even though years have passed relationships can still work out. It's really all about choosing to stay together against all odds. I remember the priests' opening remarks saying.

"Tinanong ko si Myrna kung anong nararamadaman niya, sabi niya kinakabahan daw siya, parang first time daw ulit. Ganun naman tlga, lagi natin tinatanong sa mga sarili natin kami pa kaya? tayo pa kaya in 25 years? in 50 years kaya?"

Boom beybeh! soo true, that would always be the question and i think the only answer to that is "ONLY IF YOU CHOOSE TO." I wanted him to be there, so that he can spend time with my family in this wonderful occasion, but he was still in baguio. sadsad.:( anyways, we were so pretty that day! i soo love the way i did my make up!:) o1.24

Ipod Touch.

My birthday came and my grad will be soon so i was thinking of something that i would ask from my parents. I wanted to ask for money, but i thought that if i do, they might not give me money na because they'll say may pera na ako. The next thing i thought off was, a new digicam! But then i remember mom has an extra so sayang naman.:) uhmm.. sunod CAR!:) haha.. pero dad told me na bibili nya daw tlga ako, pero pag daw my work na ako, kasi baka daw hindi ko naman magamit. haha Tapos IPOD TOUCH! haha.. at first my mom said okay, but then as time passes by, it seems like she's not paying full attention everytime i try to remind her about the Ipod. But at the end of the day! Mom bought me one!:) yey I now have 32gb IPOD TOUCH 4G!

Surprise.

Everytime i remember this day, it always leaves a smile on my face.:) I woke up really early that day because i have to get my brothers' card at southville. And then we decided to meet up later that afternoon to find a grad dress. I said that we meet up around 3 or 4pm. I felt sleepy so i slept, then he texted that we should meet up around 4pm so much better coz i still have time to sleep. Do you know the feeling when you wake up a little just to change position, that's what happened to me. I was turning and when i opened my eyes his face was moving forward to my face. And I HAD THE BEST REACTION!! too bad he didn't caught it in video!:))) I almost screamed! wait, i think i did! kulang nalang tumakbo akooo! haha! its as if i saw a ghost running after me! oh my! super benta tlga reaction ko that day! Super funneh tlga! O.O Well, thats it. then we went Window shopping in hoping to find a grad dress, but then along the way i lost the bracelet he gave me for christmas.:( i think it fell off my arm when i was trying on some dresses.:( oh well,, he didnt get mad but i really felt bad and sad about it. He said papaltan naman daw nya ng bago!:) yey!!! looove it! can't wait! and i really promise na hindiii ko na iwawalaaaa..:) o1.28

Goodbye January! and Hello february! Things to look forward to this month:

1. Grad Practice!

2. Graduation!

3. Party.

4. Our 33rd monthsary!

5. MUST FIND A JOB! =)

6. MORE DATE with Babe!

7. My guesting as a speaker! waaah(scary!)

8. Panagbengga Festival in Baguio

and ooohh.. 9. valentines day!:) hihihihi That's all for now!:)

-A