i got scared..:c

YesterNYT.. i got to do my 10 page paper for tredfor class about "MARRIAGE".. (thanks G for the help! haha) and fyi! nafreecut class nmn dun kanina! haha.. so there.. the boyfriend was asking me wat i want for my married life... i said i dont know actually.. then i got the nicest idea... i told himm...

i want my married life to be with you...

haha.. so there.. at first he said that its soo baduy.. but then he said he smiled! haha(KINILIG?!).. haha.. then right there and then it left us talking about our future.. coz i asked him how he wants his future married life to be.. he said.. he just wants two kids and that we will be leaving in tagytay.. and i teased him.. how would i make that fit in a two page paper!! haha.. then he said i should write about my dream wedding..,, he said his was us to be married by a beach setting and he wants it to be simple.. i told him.. i want to be married in tagytay.. then he said na.. beach daw kxe maganda daw pakingan ung waves! haha.. sbi ko pano yan 2 venue naten! then he said?.. that we should have two weddings! the wedding in tagaytay would be the formal wedding,, while the weddingby the beach would be "testing lang".. wat the! haha

so there.. when i woke up.. i woke up scared.. lets be honest.. people in relationships who talk about their plans for the future often leads to break up.. it got me scared that we might be leading there.. so there.. somehow the feeling passed.. by noon time.. he was pursuing that we should see each other.. i dont know why really..,, lately,, his been like that.. as if,, out of the blue he wants us to date! weird right! then.. here goes.. it started agenwhen he told me to read one of his post in FS.. titled "a pic of mg gf..:)".. (freaky ung post! scary! haha) then when i read his other post.."emo no more..".. i felt scared agen.. these are the questions he answered that agen made me wonder..:c

13. Ano babaguhin mo sa past mo para mas maging masaya buhay mo ngayon?

- January 18 2006 , sorry na.

my comment: i dont know whats with this date. really.. ahmm.. xempre naginvestigate ako! january 18 was seniors o6 batch cheering practice! oh dba galing!! i remmebered it was the day after dramafest.. dramafest was the day that he asked me at the multi purpose hall if kme daw ni R.. tapos pag ka yes ko.. umalis sya.. then,, december 07.. pinaalala niya sken ung incident na un.. he was suppose to court me daw.. kaso.. un nga nalmn niya na kme ni R! so wats the purpose na magcourt pa xa eh my bf na ako.. so my question is!! ano tong JANUARY 18, 2006, sorry na. drama??!!

21. Ano o sino ang nagpapastress sayo ngayon?

- sya.

my comment: sino? ako?

22. Para sayo, kailangan ba ng GF/BF para sumaya?

- nope kelangan mo lng ng tropa.

my comment: hmm.. okei pagbigyan! pero may gf xa dba.. cen he at least mn lang say yes for me!

23. Magbanggit ng 5 tao na malaki naging impact sa buhay mo..

- Abby , Kat , Jesus Christ , Mama , Papa.

my comment: no comment sa 2nd name!

25. Sa tingin mo, ilan nagkakagusto sayo ngayon?(dapat magbigay ng #, kahit estimate lang)

- 1 = Abby

my comment: ow well!

28. Isang tao na iiyakan mo kapag sumakabilang buhay na? =c

- Abby :(.

my comment: no comment..

im shaking right now.. my hands are shaking while typing..:(oh.. my bumalik sken na nagbobother sken nun.. i remember na.. naging sila ni K(ex niya) march 06something.. and he said 1yr and 6 months sila.. so if you count that,,, nagbreak sila.. september 07!.. eh, we started going out 1st week october o7!:( wat thus this say really.. im starting to get scared and be paranoid na..:( its hard.. naiisip ko panakip butas lang ako..:( i want to cry..:(

-A