I am afraid that..

for all the girls out there who has been or is in a relationship,, have you ever felt in some point in time that your boyfriend stopped caring?.. stopped thinking about the both of you?.. less texts.. less cares.. less in all.. hai.. well, i know all these things are experienced by couples in some point of time..

Let me enumerate my points why i am scared:
1. I am afraid that im loving him too much.
2. I am afraid that im being so nice! Too nice!
3. I am afraid that im not good enough.
4. I am afraid that im investing too much in our relationship and later get my heart broken:(
5. I am afraid that sometimes i worry too much, i text too much that he might get mad or masakal siya..:(
6. I am afraid that, me giving him space and not texting him not often might let him think that i dont care..:(
7. I am afraid that he find someone better than me.
8. I am afraid that in some point in time he might stop loving me.:(
9. I am afraid that it will come a time that the spark might just fade away.. and we just stop loving each other.
10. I am afraid that we lose that happy feeling when were together. or he starts to get bored when we are together.:(
11. I am afraid that whenever were not together he might find someone else. Especially when his not texting.
12. I am afraid of a lot of things actually, but most of all im afraid of not having to be with him and I am afraid of ,what if one day i wake up and lose that happy feeling of being in love with him:(

err.. whatever this i am feeling i don't like it. I admit, im a little bit of a paranoid when it comes to love. I may actually look happy all the time, but for all you know i worry so much. Sometimes i let the smallest detail creep to my head and taran!! i worry, and worry and worry!! err!! So right now, yes, i admit, maybe i am just overreacting right?.. waa.. but sometimes you can't really hide that gut feeling of yours! err!! This is all his fault, it all started when the cool-off incident happened.:( but, i know i have to learn to trust him again. I need to believe and have faith again!

Actually, okay nman kme nagun ea.. I just really have this weird feeling..:|Sorry, vulnerable. emotional of me..:|For whatever reasons i maybe scared of, i know of one thing. That my love for him is reason enough to stay in our relationship. As long as WE BOTH WORK THINGS OUT,, i know it will work. What does abby need to do? Abby needs to put to action what she tells her friends..

JUST HAVE FAITH ABBY! HAVE FAITH!:)

-A