i just miss having to know that he cares..:( having to feel that he cares..:(

I cried. i miss him. and i think im over reacting. well, my boyfriend is leaving on the 29th.. his going to australia for about two weeks. he said he'll be back april 10.. so, as i have said in my last last blog.. i said, i wanted to spend much time with him as much as possible.. i really do..:(

today, i got kinda pissed off with him.. well, we were not txting all day.. im actually used to it.. that we dont even text each other kht goodmornings and all.. and i miss those days.. that we'd text non stop actually..:( well, for the record. i was kinda expecting he'd come today.. siguro nakadadag pa un sa kabadtripan ko..:( i texted him when i got home. my first text to him today.. i said that im home na.. he didn't reply.. so okay. but then around 7-7:30..

i texted him
"diddy?"..
he replied
"yes baby?u(smiley)"
then i said..
"wala laaaaaaaaaaaaangg... di ka lang naman nagpaparamdaaaaaaaaaaaaamm..:( buong araaaaaaaaaaw...:("
tapos he replied..
"Anu aq ghost para paramdam? u(smiley) hahaha"..
parang ako! wat the!! shet! dito lalo ako nabadtrip! so i replied with..
"ay nakoooh!!:c"..
tapos sbi niya..
"haha. u(smiley) wag ka na sad . u(smiley) nuod ka na lan hbo. u(smiley)"
dahil naiinis ako.. i replied with..
"ayaw. asa rum aq.. im watching chuck.."
hai.. tapos ayan! he replied with..
"baby kung bdtrip k wag k muna mag txt bka mahawa lang aq."..
so xempre.. super i want to talk to him.. actually i wanted to see him.. so at least makausap ko man lang xa thru text kung di kme magkikita dba. . tapos d pa nga kme magkatxt buong araw ea.. so.. i replied with..
"ea., im not.. sori na..:c kaw kxe ea..:c sori..:c"

and there.. he didn't reply.. hai.. i got sad.. really really sad.. tapos naiyak ako.. i cried.. for about a minute ata..:( i supeeeeeeeeeeeer miss him..:( suppeeeeeeer..:( like i said to joy.. (a new found friend.. hi joy!) maybe the thought of him leaving and the thought of having to miss him when his gone made me miss him even more..:( geeets?.. hai.. hangang ngaun di pa rin kme naguusap..:(

I miss him..:( i really do..:( his leaving on sunday na..:( i just really really want to spend time with him..:( or just maybe feel that his there pa.. dhil alam kong andyan pa nmn tlga xa.. i cant explain.. maybe i just want to feel his presence lang ulit in my life..:( am i asking for too much?.. im used to us not texting each other often.. and okay lang nmn ea.. it just shows how we trust each other that much.. that we'd knw we care even though we dont text..:( but you know what.. after a while.. i miss having to know he cares about whats happening to me.. or what am i doing.. i miss the old times.. iba pa rin kxe when he lets me know he does even though i dont tell him too..

i just miss having to know that he cares..:( just having to feel that he cares..:(

-A