Why all the effort for her?

i was suppose to post this yeesterday.. but then i just thought that i should sleep nlng rather than pour all my feelings out on my blog.. yes, im having a rough time now.. with my boyfriend.. well, its hard to admit that im the one who has the issues and all.. but its not entirely all my fault.. it all started with the "D.C." girl thing in facebook. i dont want to broadcast her name out coz it would be unfair to her.. so here goes.. this girl.. D.C... he said he courted her before.. and yes he admitted it to me.. and he even added kxe daw she's cute.. so as the "not-so-jealous"(YOU THINK?) girlfriend.. i just said okay...

So they started putting wall posts on each others profile.. so okay.. i didnt actually made a big fuzz bout it yet.. but then nyt before his bday.. Pum PMed me..! and she said she noticed D.C. and my boyfriend doing all the wall post thingies..!! then she said that she'd do something to make the girl feel guilty!! haha. i dont know why she hates D.C. so much. maybe because of the fact that my friend Gene, also courted D.C. before.. and now that she''s with Karen.. D.C. about a months ago, also had contact with Gene! ahah.. but xempre as the goodie two shoes girl.. i said no!! behave Pum! haha.. errr!!

So i got so curious why Pum was kinda pissed off.. So i started reading their posts!! and hell yeah!! that's when i started feeling bad..:( i felt that maybe there realy is something..:( the thing is.. HE.. my boyfriend. is putting all that time and effort to post thingies on her wall!! okay! i admit i started to get jealous!!

and jealousy sucks BIG TIME!!:(

Yesterday was May 2,, i wanted to make her bday special despite the fact that im feeling something wrong..:( so, right before he went to work.. i told my couzin to drop off my gifts for him at his work.. so he'll be surprised when he arrives there.. so ayun.. he said Thank you baby..u at that time, for me, at least he said thank you and maybe he did like it.. but then, when i got to school. Marie asked what happened.. tapos she said.. ano ba yan wala man lang i love you! so ayun!! it struck me! bat nga ba wala!!..:( so kay.. hinyaan ko na.. but the feeling didn't go away.. plus the jealousy i felt for the D.C. pa.. :( i told Franz that i was jealous about this girl and all.. and about the wall post thingies! and what he said was.. at least his not hiding it or something.. and yes.. he has a point there.. but still kxe..:( girl instinct ea..:(

On my way to drop by sa work niya,, we were texting and all.. i dont want to put all the details na.. coz it will be so long.. but the point is.. ang bully niya promise..:( when we saw each other.. i cnat hide the fact that i was sad..he was hyper and all.. and yes, he noticed i was sad.. pero he was still hyper.. Geyb, said maybe he wanted to cheer me up.. maybe.. and then, he even joked that seroiusly daw wala daw xa sa anniv namen.. thats when i felt i was about to cry.. but then,, i really tried not to.. its his bday and i dont want to make a scene. so i just said,,

"nde ko alam kung bkt ang bully bully mo ngaun.." naiinis ako sayo"..

tapos i was smiling kxe nga pinipigilan ko srili ko umiiyak.. tapos sbi niya.. may naiinis ba na nakasmile..? tapos makulit parin xa and all. sbi ko ako.. so ayun.. we said our goodbyes.. okay nmn.. pero i still tried to hide what i was feeling..

Dinner later that night at his house daw.. tapos before he went home, dapt dadaanan niya ako sa bhay, kaso guess what!! nakalimutan niya akong daanan!! nagmamadali daw sila ng mom niya! okay sige! fine!! on my way to his house.. bigla syang nagprisinta na susunduin niya ako sa may starbucks!! na aprang okay.. umeffort?.. haha.. when we got to his house.. buti nlng andun ung lola and lolo niya.. who made me feel oh so welcomed.. tapos his dad, mom and tita was so kulet.. tapos her kuya and ate.. said they like the cupcakes i bought him.. hmm.. that night we were okay namn.. i tried to hide what i was feeling coz i know it will ruin the moment.. pero its still there ea.. around 830 umuwe na ako.. he was going to drink with village friends.. it texted him when i got home.. he didnt reply..

when i was about to go to sleep.. he texted and he said he was home na.. at least dba.. tapos aun.. i said na i was about to sleep na and all.. he should rest na kxe his gonna watch the pacquio game today..and i said i love you.. i though he wouldn't reply na.. but then he replied.. he said i love you too..u

today, he said he'll come over.. but then.. wala pa din xa.. and his not texting either.. yes, nagtext sya knina.. na papunta na daw siyang mall and that pacquio won and all.. pero.. nde na xa ulet nagttxt.. im not loosing hope... but im not expecing either..:) kanina.. i went online and guess what!! xa nnmn nauna mag post sa wall ni D.C.!! about an hour ago! nung times na d na xa nagttxt!! hai.. i dont know anymore.. why put all that effort for her dba?.. and good thing toh maybe.. but she didn't replied back.. i dont know.. hai.. is this for real?.. is he really feeling something na ulet for the girl.. or maybe im just over reacting..

i dont know..:(

-A