i hate this part...:(

It all started when he asked me to share him a load.. kxe nakalimuan niya mag unli!! haha.. here's how the conversation went..(as fas as i remember it..)

E: Thanks beybeh!
A: haha! you are 1 big spoiled bully boyfriend!! (totoo naman ea!! hmp!)
E: Kya mo nga ako laabs dba?..
A: Bkt nga ba kita sinagot!! Remind me agen why??!! haha
E: Abah Binabaligtad!! ako kya sumgot syo..!! out of the blue nagtanong ka na anu na ba tlga tayo..(or somethinglike that yung rep niya!! yeah! its true, i was the one who asked him!! haha)
A: haha!! Why did i ever did dat!! why did i ever sked dat question!! gusto mo bawiin ko!!???
E: waaaag muna!! tinatamad pa ako maghanap ng bago ea!!
A: Ha!? Sapak want moo!!!

Errrr!!!.. i know lakas trip lang niya!! pero not funny ea!:( nakaasar!! and one thing i dont like it when he calls me bano!! i know his just being bully and makulet!! pero ewan lately ive been really pissed when he fools around like i dont have feelings and all!!..:( err.. wala lang..:( i just dont like it, its like his pushing me away..:( feel ko dadating ng time na mapipikon ako sknya..:( hai.. sya nga pag inaasar ko minsan napipikon ea,, may karapatan din nmn ako mapikon dba..?..:( errrrrr baka PMS lang toh..:( grrr.. nakakainis tlga..

Why does he have to be like that, one thing his sweet and all,, super cheesy moments but then one thing his not! his bully with no boundaries, his super kulet!! his just ever bully!! and i just dont like it!! i hate it when he does that!! sometimes kxe sobra na!! ang sarap na niyang sagutin at abarahin!! tae badtrip tlga!!! errrr!!!

-A

I just love my Man..:)

Here's another cheezy blog..:)

How can you say you're satisified in a relationship?.. How can you say that you are happy?.. i mean really really happy? .. if you're asking me?.. well, i dont know how to do that.., for i cannot find the right words to say how i feel.. but i know that im very, and i say very very happy and satisified..:)

Yes, he can be a little bit of a headache sometimes(especially when he gets mad! he can be a little monster! haha) but you know what they say, in the end its all worth it.. all of it.:) And truly relationships aren't one ways.. its all about meeting in the middle and working it out to reach that other half of the bridge..:) wala lang!!:D

Today, i got to meet up with boyfriend after school..:) Original plan was starbucks!! Pero changed our mind so foodtrip nlng sa bhay!:) so there kulitan and all.. And again, kinulit nnmn niya mga tao sa ym ko!! haha!! and yes!! he can be a really bully sometimes!! ahaha.. naginarte nga ako knina ea..!! haha.. pero sinuyo nmn nya ako agad!! haha.. GOOD!!:) so there, so when he got home,,we were txting and im still doing a letter for my org when he asked me if it would take long(my letter). I said in a few, i asked him why, he said becoz his sleepy na.. then i tld him na mauna na sya magsleep kxe bka matagalan pa..!! but then he texted this one..

"I'll try to keep up. o haha pag d aku nag reply 2log na kuu. o"

so i said okay, and asked him what was he still doing.. but then no replies naaa!! haha ill try to keep up and then he slept na rin!! haha.. ain't he the cutest!!:) naaliw lang ako..!! haha.. kxe nmn.. nakatulog tlga xa agad!! haha.. oh well, his truly one of kind!:) I just love my Man..:)

-A

who needs the world when i got you?..:)

Can I count on you, diddy?..

I wanna grow old and still be in love like this.
Can I count on you, diddy?..

**reposted and edited.! I got this from my tumblr (credits to sevgilim). I reblogged it na.. but i still find it really cute!!:) so there.. reposted it on blogspot!!:) **

Lucky to be loved..:)

Wat more cud i wish for?..

Lately, i really have been very happy of what's been going on between me and boyfriend..:) i mean maybe its been a good thing mostly because we just came from a fight,, err, not a fight but a little let's jst say blurry situation.

So there,, june 9.. i still had my goodmornings.. and he was always there and everything..:) not much of texting but he let me knew if something was going on..:) then last night he waited for me to go to sleep before he did.. so that we'll sleep the same time.. so it al starter with

"sleep na us.u"

then i said. okay, i fixed my stuff na and got ready for bed.. then when i said i was done he said, that chuck and larry was showing at hbo.. then i said that i remembered the 1st time we went out. because Chuck and LArry was the very 1st movie we saw together on our 1st Date!!:) then he said..

"yeah ng dpt d pa ma22loy kc ang pabago bago time mu!u"

kxe nmn noh!! takas lang ako nun!! haha.. it was almost past midnight and he's still up!!:)kxe nga sbay daw kme magsleep..:) so he said na we'll sleep na so i said okay sleep na kme and he replied with..

"Gudnayt gelprend ku.u i love you so much much much ren po. u i miss you po.:c"

then i replied with..

"aww i miss you too po..:c super..:c"

then he replied..

"oh xa tama na 2log na us.u haha"

sbi ko..

"okay po nanyt ulet diddy ko..:) umwahmwahmwahmwahmwahmwahmwahmwahmwahmwahmwahs.u swiptyt diddy ko..u"

so i thought he wouldn't reply na.. kxe nga sbi niya tama na daw un..:) tapos he replied paaa!!

"Andame nalulunod akuu.u"

haha.. nagreply pa tlga!! so sbi ko..

"haha.. okkay na tamaaa naaa.. last na tla.. i love you so so so so muuuuuch po.. umwahs..u"

tapos.. ayaw paawat nagreply paren!! haha..

"okay po.u i love you so much po.u"

i didn't reply na.. kxe sure ako hindi matatapos un!! haha.. he's not likly to be this way..:) uber sweet!!! as in ubeeeeeer!:) haha then when i woke up June 10.. i woke up with his txt message..

"Goo morneng baby.u"

after 30 minutes i woke up.. and replied.. "

Goo morneng diddy ko na love na love na love koooo.u"

and he replied with

"haha.u adik mo. u eatur breakfast na.u"

actualy i was hesitating to send my reply to his goodmorning, kxe ang aga aga ang cheezy ko!! haha.. and usually, ssbhin nun ang baduy ko!! but today he didnt!! parang natuwa pa nga xa ea!! haha:)) so therewe wer texting all day while watching a movie sa star movies..:)

So today, me and some of my friends planned to have a dvd marathon. i said he shud come!! but he said na pupunta lang xa if i treated him double quarter pounder!! sbi ko!! wala na akong peraa!! haha.. and besides,, he has no car,, kaya tinatamad xa magcommute,, and for one more reason, because henry would be there.. sbi niya

"bka daw magselos si henry!! haha which is super tagal na na issue!!"

ahaha so we were texting all day.. tapos biglang hindi na xa nagrereply.. so, i texted him.. sbi ko bkt d na xa nagrereply!! tapos sbi niya

"adik ka kxe.u"

tapooos!! after 15-20 mintes!! dyaraaan!! his there na ulet paakyat ng stairs..:) so there, it was kinda ackward the he was there and henry too!! haha:D

But then, it was the most simpliest and from rayanns term most "intimate" moments with him.. where,, we just sat on the couch.. and cuddled up.. hugged him tightly.. he hugged me back.. and kiss me in the forehead..head.. there also, i soo loved the time nung sinuksok (nde ko alam kung anong term gagamitin koo!! haha) ko ung head ko sa may shoulders niya and super hug lang kme for about 3-5 minutes..:) and i soo loved the way he smelled!:)

He wenthome around 9:30 naa..:) i think he tried to weyt for some of my boy____(space) friends to go home.. kaso ndi niya kaya kxe surebol late na xa makakauwe..:) haha.. so ayun!! he went home na rin..:) and we texted till he slept!!:) aww,,, nakataulogan nya ako.. i find it cute!! haha.. kxe alam ko na he wants to wait for me to sleep para sby kme kaso ayun, d nya na nakaya..:) here are some of my favorite texts of our texting mode tonyt..:)

So we were watching dis movie Apocalypto ata sa star movies!! tapos is i noticed what they were wearing, its like our version of "bahag".. so i said na it was so sexy!! haha.. then here's how are texting went ..

E:"haha bahag lang!u parang ikaw lang, mangyan.u"
A: "Ekaw kya mangyan...u pero ikaw lang ung mangyan na love ko...u"
E:"Yehey. u ay onga pla i love you too baby.u"
A:"ayann..:c i want hug uleeet....=c"
E:"Aq ren.:c i want hug hangang mag sleep.:c"

There.. i think there was one time wen nakatulog kme hugging each other for an hour or two ata un..:) wala lang.. i soo love the feeling of sleeping right there in his arms and of course!! the best thing is waking up beside him..:) wala lang.. agen here's another chezzy txts..:

E:"andyan pa si geyb.u"
A: "yup, nagkwekwentuhan pa sila ni muma. hahau"
E: "haha e late na e, late na ulet tau makaka2lod nian.u"
A:"haha.. oo nga.. aww, weweyt mo nnmn ako to sleep..?u"
E: "yupyup. u i always do naman ea.u"
A: "yey!!u diddy, super miss na miss na miss na miss na miss q na ikaw..:c"
E: "Aq ren po. :c"
A:"aww.. okay lang yan diddy!.. mlpt na umalis sila muma..:) konting tiis nlngggg..:)"
E:"haha okaaaay. u sleep tyo evryday.u"
A: "yey!!u masleep tayo ha!!u tapos huhug kita ng super higpiiit!!!u"
E:"Opoopo.u hug mo q parati to sleep!!u"

:D need i say more..:) its these moments that we talk with nothing in our minds but the moments of being together in each others arms..:) i can truly say,, that there is no malice behind any of these..:) its just all about loving and being there..:) err.. its 2:30 am and im still blogging!:) we'll sleep now..:) goodnyt!!:)

-A

Cheeseburger!!::)

As i have said in my previous blog..:) Our 13th monthsary.. started with his post at my wall at FB..:)tapo.. better..:) when i woke up.. my

Goo mornen..u

txt xa.. haha!! answered prayer!!:) i got my goodmornings back..:) yey!! tapos.. i greeted him!! i think he forgot..haha.. ayaw pa niang aminin!! haha!! so ayun, around 3pm he texted..:) punta daw siya!!:) sbi ko cgecge:) kaso mga 4 na ata or 5.. wala pa din..!! haha.. tapos nagtxt.. nakatulog daw xa!! tapos, sbi ko

pupunta ka pa ba?.. punta ka naa!! daliii naa!!:)

haha.. demanding?..:D tapos.. sbi niya ayaw niya.. tutulog nlng daw sya!! sbi ko nakooh!! haha.. tapos sbi niya.. libre ko daw siya ng double cheeseburger sa mcdo!! sbi ko..

Punta ka dito!! libre kta!!:)

haha.. And guess wat!! ang rep niya agad is!!

seryoso baby?.. wala na akong pera ha!! cge papunta na ako dian!!

haha!! cheeseburger lang katapat!!:) haha!!:) so ayun!! he came around 6 na kxe may pinagawa pa sknya si tita..:) tapos pagdating niya we ordered mcdo.. tapos habang weyting kulitan lang and played with the laptop.. tapos pagkadating nung mcdo we ate... tapos nagyaya xa magruins!:) so we went to ruins!:) xa ung nagdrive!:) this was the first time na magkasama kme sa car, na kmeng dalwa lang na xa ung nagdrdrive..:) smooth driver si boyfriend..:) haha naalala ko tuloi ung cliche na..

"Bsta Driver Sweet Lover!!"

wahaha.. so ayun,, naglolokohan kme while his driving!! kxe naman!! stop tapos nag go go!! haha.. pasaway!! ayun.. Messed around and just laughed around..:)

I've got my happiness back..:) yey!!:) I Love him so so much!!:) VERYYY!!:)

Here's a copy of the lyrics 6months by hey monday!:) super xa ung fave ko ngaun!!:) and it basically says everything i feel!:) so LOVE IT IS!!:)

You're the direction I follow to get home
When I feel like I can't go on, you tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
'cause you have that effect on me, you do

Everything you say
Everytime we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

Months going strong now, and no goodbye
Unconditional, unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me, I love you harder so

Everything you say
Everytime we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, give me a lesson on how to steal, steal the heart
As fast as you stole mine, as you stole mine

Oh and everything you say
Everytime we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, just take my hand. 

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

-A

A Happy 13th start!:)

:D 13th na namen today!! June 8, 2009..:D

-A

we need some lovin..:)

weirdopot: wala pa balita alis ni tita ?
*ah-ah*: haha!! i heard.. nagbabalak na ata umuwe!! ang problem!! sinasama kme!! haha
weirdopot: wag na
weirdopot: sabihin mo next week may pasok ka na e
weirdopot: tska dame mo pa gagawin
weirdopot: kasi mag finals na kau
*ah-ah*: haha.. sbi ko nga ayoko ea. haha;
*ah-ah*: parang ang balita is wed ata xa uuwe.. ewan ko lang kung matutuloi..
weirdopot: haha
weirdopot: sana ma2loy
*ah-ah*: at bkt gusto mo ngpauwiin si mami haaaa??
weirdopot: i need sum lovin
*ah-ah*: haha!!
*ah-ah*: i know!! me too!! haha
weirdopot: ikaw ayaw mo ?
weirdopot: ahahaha
weirdopot: yun naman pala e !
*ah-ah*: haha!!
weirdopot: ayan 2loy !
weirdopot: namimiss ku na ekaw ! :(
*ah-ah*: i miss you too..:( sobraaa...

Wala lang.. haha.. That was today!! as of 6pm..:)... wala lang..:) haha

-A

on the right track again..:)

"Nannbgo lang kxe aq...:c d naman tayo dati gnto ea..:c sa txt na nga lng tayo nkkpgusap tapos mwawala pa un..:c wala lang super nammiss lang kta ng sobra..:c"

There.. The words i told him.. The words that made everything come back.. The words that made everything come back on the righ track..:) Honestly, i didn't thought that it would be this easy to fix. I'm always afraid of how I say/deliver my words.. coz he might take it badly and eventually make everything worse.. and i am so glad i found the right words, on the right time,, with a lot of courage to tell him how i really felt. i dont usually do this.. The part where i step forward and tell him how hurt and how i miss him so much.. Its actually not easy.. honestly..

Thiese past few days, ive really been missing him so much.. I really did.. And i thought that everything will be okay if we just see each other even for a while.. But i was proven wrong..:(

He visited me thursday. The funny part was i didn't know he came by.. I was watching Hotel for dogs ata sa sala sa taas.. When our dogs barked!! usually, they behave that way when we have a visitor.. So i was hopping it was him.. but no one came up the stairs.. oh well,, ikaw na ikaw na ang magassume. i didnt get dissapointed or anything kxe ako lang nmn ung umaasa ea.. But then when i was in my brother's room.. getting ready to take a bath! yes. d pa ako naliligo! haha:)) he texted..

"Baby dumaan ako sa inyo. sinabi ni ate jackie?"

so.. ako parang weh?.. d nga?. haha.. wala nmn kase sken sinsabi si ate jackie!.. so yes, dumaan nga daw siya.. akala daw kxe ni ate jackie alam ko.. so nde na niya sinabi.. haha.. so okay.. ayun.. he left daw agad kxe kelangan niya ihatid sila tita sa molina.. pero sbi niya kay ate jakie bblik nlng daw siya..

i didn't expect he would.. kxe nung magkatext kme wala nmn xang nabangit na babalik xa.. and besides biglang hindi nnmn xa nagtext.. so ayun.. i was helping my mom in cutting the hair of boomboom.. Puppy namen. haha.. when paglingon ko.. paakyat sya ng stairs.. so yes he came.:)

Okay naman,, like i said.,, wala kmeng maxadong nagawa kxe si mami andito sa bhy plus si tita and tito dumating! haha.. so there,, we just fooled around, played sa laptop and medyo kulitan..so ayun nga.. he left after 2 or 3 hours.. kxe magjam daw sila sa bhy ng friend niya.. so okay.. at least he came dba..

Pagalis niya,, i texted him.. no reps.. tapos i texted him after about an hour na aalis ako dat night with gstns friends.. no reps paren.. tapos.. bgo ako umalis.. i went online.. den onlne xa.. so pni-em ko xa.. bhy na daw xa. so un nga kung hindi ko pa xa pni-em di pa niya ako kakausapin or kung di pa ako nagonline di ko pa mllmn na bhy na nga xa..

So my point is,, nagkita nga kme.. pero just right after he left parang wala lang nangyari.. kasi d na rin nmn xa masyado nagttxt..

so un lang nmn ung issue ko.. ung texting.. naiintindihan ko nmn na d constant un ea.. pero to the point na wala na... hai.. okay lang sna kung lague kme nagkikita ea.. kaso hindi as in..:(

Oh wel,, at least, wer working things out na... :) so far, everythings good..:) nakikita ko nmn na he's trying to make things work out.:) and im really happy with it..:)

Like, it shows he cares now..:) i feel it..:)

-A

i miss us...:(

I miss the way he cares when he knows im going out.

I miss the times when he gets mad when i dont reply when im out with my friends.

I miss how much he texts me asking what im doing when im out.

I miss the way he hugs me and how tight it gets when we are together.

I miss the way he kisses my forehead when his holding me tight..:( it shows the purity of his love.

I miss the way he kisses me with no malice.

I miss spending time with him.. just fooling around. doing nothing. just messing around.

I miss the feeling of being with him..:(

I miss the way he smells.. a mix of his perfume and yosi smell. and it smells good actually.

I miss having to hold hands with him. like his never gonna let me go.

I miss the way he fixes my hair back to my ears when its all messed up.

I miss the way he steal kisses from me..the way his lips touches my cheeks. the innocence of it.

I miss the way his body warms me when he cuddles me..

I miss the way his hands are wrap around my waist. i miss the feeling of being there.

I miss the way he fools around when we are together.

I miss the way he covers his eyes when we watch horror movies.

I miss the way he laughs when somethings funny.

I miss his surprises. Knowing he does all that effort to make me happy

I miss the feeling of being surprised. to know he cares that much.

I miss the way it feels to know that he would always be there for me.

I miss the way he texts so much,, showing he cares enough to know what im doing, or where i am.

I miss getting surprise calls from him.. and when i ask why he did. he says just because he misses me. or he just wants to here my voice.

I miss my goodmornings. the way he texts me when he wakes up or when his going out.

I miss being a part of his daily life.. I miss having to know wat happens in his life even though its just the same everyday..:(

I miss having to smile from reading his text messages.

I miss having to know that he wants to do things with me and he wants me to be a part of what his doing.

I miss him more than anything in this world.

I miss the way we do things together.

I miss the way forever feels when i am with him.:(

I just really really miss the idea of "US"..:(

I miss us..:(

*im crying right now...

-A

Back to normal..:)

i dont need any reason to love you :) - boyfriend

*kilig* this is the stat of my boyfriend kanina lang when he went online..:) sbi ng kapatid ko.. kagabi pa daw niya toh stat.. pero di ko nakita ea, until now..:) wala lang..:) sweet.. and just sweet..:) super it made me smile..:D we are kinda back to normal na.. i think, we are..:) well, at least dba..:)

i miss him so much..:( i miss him a little bit more everyday we are apart..:(

hopefully, makahanap ako ng time to be with him by weekend..:( sana tlga...:(

-A

Baby gcng ka na?u

Last saturaday night me and boyfriend had a real big fight!:( as in fight kung fight! its because we were suppose to meet up the next day for church and lunch. But then, the plans changed because me and my couzins went out for an after party and i have to sleep at the hotel for it will be late na when we finish. By then, i know that we wont be able to pursue our plans of going out. By telling him i wont be able to go out with him the next day.. he got mad..:( really mad..:( i dont want to put the details na but he really got mad.. and somehow he said some harsh things.. not that harsh but still..:( words that hurt me..:( i even cried last night talking to geyb for i dont really know wat to do.:( it was hard for me to know that he doesnt understand my situation.

The thing is, my situation with my parents is really hard. PARENTS can be so complicated! and he can't understand that. I dont know why. i think he understands naman but somehow his still asking for more than that. ewan ko ba..:( err.. so i was kinda pissed off last night that i didnt text him today..:|

I was eating lunch at mcdo and having a heart to heart talk with Pawlin San Mateo!! Thanks dear!! i missed our chikka moments!:) and while i was pouring my heart out, very very must i say verrrrrrrrrrry confused and lost on what will i do!! he texted..

"Baby gcng ka na?u"

yun ea! may smiley pa! parang ako!! what the hell.. Just like that!! so i replied!

"Gcng na po. Mcdo na. May clas po aq knina ea.."

yun din! cold much!! kasi naman noh! i wont pretend im okay wen im not!! and so he replied.

"Tapucn na nten to baby ayoko ng ganto e. kung ikaw gusto m ng gnto bhala k."

Maybe this is the one thing ive been waiting for.. nasumuko sya! haha.. One thing or another i expected he'll get tired din of getting mad and all. just waiting for his sorry. and i think etoh na un.. so ayun.. i asked him if his okay na..? kasi 1 thing, sya lang naman ung naggagalit galitan ea!! haha.. so ayun, he said his okay na!! and guess what!! he insisted na sunduin nya ako today! kasi may dala daw siyang kotse!! abah!! gumaganun!! haha..:)) pero i said na till 6 ako.. ayun! nagback out na!! haha.. oh well.. at least he thought of it right?.. haha!!

Wala lang.. Medyo asar lang ako.. almost 1 and a half day kmeng magkaaway.. tapos ganun lang yun?.. Yes, i admit im glad that its over.. pero super emote emote pa ako!! tapos ganun lang!! haha.. eerrr.. this blog was suppose to be very emotional sharing how i feel and how i am so pissed off at him!!! but here goes. wala na.. konting lambing lang, wala na!! errr!!!

Why are girls so Vulenrable!??? arghhhhhhhhhh

-A