Tuesday, July 7, 2009

On getting Tired of all the bullying..:(

When do you say enough is enough?..:(

Lately, i've been enduring all the bullying and mean stuff that my boyfriend says to me..:( i know he doesn't really mean it and his just fooling around.. but i dont know maybee its just too much for me..:( I know i can be really pretty nice and all.. i mean really really really nice.. but sometimes i also know when it is enough..:(

The thing is.. its okay lang nmn sken na he teases me and all.. pero grabe iba na ung intensity(may ganun!) ea..:( sobra.. if you read his comments in my facebook.. its like im not his girlfriend.. Yes, i know he can be that rude, and his not that cheezy type of boyrfriend pero grabe.. sunod sunod na!! everyday of my life these past few days!! ganun xa!! HINDI BA NIYA ALAM NA KELANGAN KO RIN NG TENDER LOVING CARE!!:( chos! haha.. pero seriously!! i find myself searching for the person i fell in love with..:( im not asking him to stop teasing me and all.. pero grabe na tlga ung ngaun..:( im just asking for some sweetness..:(

I miss that boyfriend i used to know..:( the one who cares.. the one who takes care of me..:(

My mother has been staying here for quite some time now.. that's why we haven't actually had the so said "quality-time" together.. sbi nga ni tiff.. "i miss the "US" time.."..:( true enough..:( he understands namn ea.. pero un nga.. this is whats happens. he becomes really really bully..!! as in super!! example:

a: im home na..u
e: di ko naman tinatanong!!!!:)

e: i dont caaare!!!:)(kulang nlang sabhin niya yan!! haha)

bsta!! so lately, di ko na xa tintxt about wts happening with me.. bhala xang magtanong or magtxt!! actually im getting tired of texting him na tuwang tuwa pa ako na ibalita ung mga ganito at ganyan.. tapos ung mga matatangap ko lang reply ay ganun. must i say.. NAKAKAWALANG GANA! seryoso!! lalo na ngaun na im super busy with school stuff..:( super wala na akong pahinga.. tapos when i have the time naman to txt him.. ganun xa.. so i'd rather not piss myself nlng noh!! thanks ha!!

Sa totoo lang.. minsan na kakahurt na ea..:( kaso i dont have the heart to tell him.. kxe for me parang ang babaw..:( kanina nga.. super pagod ako tapos super ganun pa xa.. napaisip ako ng quote at ito un:
"Wag mong hintayin na hanapin ko sa iba ang alam mo namang kaya mong maging!"
oh deeba?.. getz niyo ba?.. sna oo!! haha.. gosh!! i soo missed blogging!:) haha.. it feels so good to release this feeling!!:) for me, for now,, bhla xa.. napapagod din ako noh..:( try mo magtxt sa taong pinakmamahal mo tapos gaganunin ka..:( hai.. maybe effect lang toh ng walang quality time bonding thingy.. pero hai.. nakkaburat lang kxe..:(

Monthsary namen tomorrow..:) 14th..:) pero i've forgotten it and kanina ko lang naalala ulet.. oh well.. we don't celebrate our monthsaries naman ea..

ay one more thing,, parang nawawalan na ako ng gana with OUR relationship.. hindi ko alam kung bkt.. siguro kxe.. the fact na nagkakaganito kme.. actually ako.. and hello!! nsan ung sensitivity nyaa!!
"HINDI BA NIYA AKO NAMIMISS?..:("
seriously im really getting tired..:(

-A

2 comments:

Abby said...

awww. nakakaasar nga yang ganyan. :| stress lang yan Abby >:D< kaya niya yan. hell weeks' almost over. i can't wait! :))

Itsaabbeehh said...

abboi..>hug< i know.. super stress weeks tlga for me..:( as in..:( hai..:( nde naman xa stressed ea.. wala nga xang pasok ea.. tapos ganun pa rin xa. tae..!!:( hai..