ayoko ng maging sad.:)

Aug. 6, 2009.
I thought this day would pass with out talking to him. but when i went online.. he pmed me..

weirdopot: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=031N31B4EvM&feature=PlayList&p=2CE686BFEF61D2D3&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=3
weirdopot: huy
*ah-ah*: yup?
weirdopot: watch na lng yan para sumaya ka konti
weirdopot: na watch mo na
weirdopot: ?
*ah-ah*: yup.
weirdopot: cute no ?
*ah-ah*: yeah.
weirdopot: hirap mo naman kausapin sige wag na nga lng
*ah-ah*: what?.
weirdopot: wala .
*ah-ah*: hai. okay
weirdopot: im trying to open a conversation tas ganyan ka . kaya wag na lang .
*ah-ah*: im sorry. its just that. ang hirap kxe ng gnto ea.
weirdopot: hirap na nga ng ganito lalo mo pa pinapahirap sige next time na lng ulet
*ah-ah*: its not easy empol. super. i want to be okay with you. kaso hindi ko ata kya. kxe ang skt.
weirdopot: then dont . ako pinipilit kong kayanin ikaw hindi ?
*ah-ah*: ang hirap kxe. nagkakaron ako ng hopes. ayoko umasa. ang hirap ang skt.
*ah-ah*: hai. okay. im sorry for being cold. my bad.
weirdopot: night . may pasok ka bukas ah . tulog ka na
*ah-ah*: in a while. dba ikaw diin may pasok?
weirdopot: aaral pa ako
weirdopot: mga 12 na siguro ako tutulog or 1
weirdopot: bahala na
weirdopot: punta na ako ulet room
*ah-ah*: okay. study kna ulet para u can sleep early.

there. In the middle of this conversation, i have realized na ayoko ng maging sad.:) ayoko ng maging malungkot.:) Yes, it hurts so much, watever hapened is in the past. i have to be strong for myself. i deserve more than this.:) abby needs to smile and be happy again.:)

The things is.. i want the hurting to stop..

I want to let him go,, but im just not yet ready to give up on him. im not ready to stop holding on.. but yet, i wont hope for anything.

kung baga.. chill lang.:) haha.. SMILE lang abby!:) Like you always do.:)

Whatever happens happens.:) sbi nga sa a walk to remember..:

MAYBE GOD HAS BETTER PLANS FOR ME THAN WHAT I HAVE FOR MYSELF.:)

Abby will smile again. no more sad thoughts. happy thoughts come to me. Look at the bright side! think positive!:) and just SMILE!.:)

-A