It's all about choosing to stay

Stay with me..

Promise me you'll never gonna leave..

Stay with me..

Lets try to be the best that we can be..

Take our time..

Love. A very powerful word that we all know, we have, we had, we feel. Last March 26, just right before he left for Bora we had a fight. It was just a simple fight, but with everything thats going through i started thinking that i had enough of all of it, of all the crappy fights that we've been going through for the past few weeks.

March 27, we were still not talking. It was the day of the party I organized. Somehow I was hoping that maybe he'd wish me luck on this one, but still nothing. In my head, i was giving him a deadline. if he hasn't txt me up until midnight. It's going to be over. And he didnt text me. Right there and then i was so sure that i would break up with him. At our party, we had Toki he was a tarot card reader. Around after midnight i asked him to read my cards on love. He said,

"masama and masyadong magpakamartyr..

this time you guys are taking some time to think about things..

alam mo sa sarili mo matagal na.. na hindi na magwowork out.. pero pinipilit mo parin..

then i asked, my future pa ba kme?.. No.."

And there it goes.. i saw my life with him over.. that time, i was so decided that i was going to break up with him.

March 28, I wasn't able to sleep well. when i woke up i decided to break up him with right there and then. so i texted him that we needed to talk. i told him i was tired and that im tired of the way he treats me when we fight. and he asked for this one last chance. but then i said that maybe this is for the better. my hearts tired of giving him all the chances he needs to fix us. in the end,, i decided give him this last chance. but for me, everything was all up to him.

And we worked it out. i couldn't be much more happier. He has changed i think. i know he has. up until now, we are working things out, and yes we are better. He is better. Sometimes we still have some fights and all. Fights, worries are inevitable in a relationship. One thing i learned from all of this.

No matter how many fights, how many times you try/want to let go, how many times you get tired.. its all about wanting to stay and work things out with the one you choose to love.

and yes I'm doing that. We're doing that. We're choosing to stay for US. To make it work out. and yes, I'm loving it. It's not perfect but it's all i need..

-A