Find Me. Please.

We say the only thing constant in this world is change. And truly, everything changes, everyone changes. The reason why i'm blogging is because i'm sad. I'm feeling sad again. Lately i'm feeling detached from our relationship. I think it's because i'm feeling that he's giving less than i wanted to get from him. These past few days iv'e been wanting him to text me more often, because lately he's been slacking of from it. It hurts to know that he's starting to be this way. It makes me feel unimportant to him. I know maybe he's busy or sometimes i think that maybe "tinatamad lang sya magtext" pero for me it's not an excuse. I'm busy too but i don't make it happen that i forget to text him or watsoever.

Being a part of somebody else's life especially in his life is one of the most important thing to me. Just like before i want to be in his life even though it's just the same thing everday. Yesternight i got to tell him that i'm really starting to get fed up with his attitude of not texting me as much as he used to. i even told him that he makes me think that maybe i'm becoming more needy of him or that im giving him his freedom too much that he's taking it for granted. He told me and assured me that this is not the case.

I love him. i do. but why am i feeling this way. There's something missing. i guess i really miss spending time with him, again. somethings in between us and i dont know what it is. i want to figure out what it is, but i'm lost and is overwhelemed by my sadness. I dont want to stay like this for a long time because i know eventually this will hurt me. maybe i miss his sweetness also, lately he's been really teasing me and i think that has an effect on me too.

I'm getting lost. Starting to fall apart and go astray. I hope he finds me soon. Coz i don't wanna go on alone.

-A