Ang sad ko. Ang sad sad sad ko tlga.
As all of you know im having my grad/bday party this sunday. Actually kaya sya sunday is because yun lang ung chance na makakapunta si beb on my party. And its the only way that he can be a part of one of the most important part of my life. And maybe i was wrong to expect too much na makakapunta siya when i know theres a chance that he cant really come, ksi nga nasa palawan sya starting tom till sunday. And i found out kanina lang na gabi pa ung dating nila..:( ayoko naman ipilit pa sknya na dumaan sya sa bhy kasi malamng he's tired from his trip. And i guess im starting to get tired na pilitin maging parte pa sya ng grad ko. Kasi parang super pinipilit ko na maging part sya pero kht anong gawin ko hindi tlga ea.
And another thing, kaya lalo ako nasasad is its because im feeling distant. Ngaun pa na lelessen ung mga text nya when im expecting, actually hoping na mas lambingin nya ako ksi nga super nasasad ako. Nafefeel ko pa na parang he's not making up for it. Parang wala lang sknya. It really is important to me, ayoko lang super ipakita sknya na nasasad ako ksi bka isipin nya nagiinarte ako.:( alam ko naman na its out of his control and i understand because its his family thing.
Err im crying..:,( i want to be okay about it pero nalulungkot tlga ako. Hindi ko mapigilan umiyak.:( i tried telling him about my feelings. Ksi bka sbhin nya ganito pla nararamdaman ko pero hindi ko snsbi sknya. He called when he received my text, he asked why and i said wala lang. Namimiss lang kita..:( tapos parang ngalit pa sya ksi nagising ko siya sa text ko e early pa sya tom. And he put down the phone without even saying i love you.:(
Hai.. Am i over reacting? Overthinking? Expecting too much? I dont know.
-A
As all of you know im having my grad/bday party this sunday. Actually kaya sya sunday is because yun lang ung chance na makakapunta si beb on my party. And its the only way that he can be a part of one of the most important part of my life. And maybe i was wrong to expect too much na makakapunta siya when i know theres a chance that he cant really come, ksi nga nasa palawan sya starting tom till sunday. And i found out kanina lang na gabi pa ung dating nila..:( ayoko naman ipilit pa sknya na dumaan sya sa bhy kasi malamng he's tired from his trip. And i guess im starting to get tired na pilitin maging parte pa sya ng grad ko. Kasi parang super pinipilit ko na maging part sya pero kht anong gawin ko hindi tlga ea.
And another thing, kaya lalo ako nasasad is its because im feeling distant. Ngaun pa na lelessen ung mga text nya when im expecting, actually hoping na mas lambingin nya ako ksi nga super nasasad ako. Nafefeel ko pa na parang he's not making up for it. Parang wala lang sknya. It really is important to me, ayoko lang super ipakita sknya na nasasad ako ksi bka isipin nya nagiinarte ako.:( alam ko naman na its out of his control and i understand because its his family thing.
Err im crying..:,( i want to be okay about it pero nalulungkot tlga ako. Hindi ko mapigilan umiyak.:( i tried telling him about my feelings. Ksi bka sbhin nya ganito pla nararamdaman ko pero hindi ko snsbi sknya. He called when he received my text, he asked why and i said wala lang. Namimiss lang kita..:( tapos parang ngalit pa sya ksi nagising ko siya sa text ko e early pa sya tom. And he put down the phone without even saying i love you.:(
Hai.. Am i over reacting? Overthinking? Expecting too much? I dont know.
-A
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