I had a dream

I woke up today with tears on my eyes. Why? I had a dream, and its not a good one. It seemed so real that why i woke up crying. My dream went on like this..

We were in a house, we were talking to a friend, Jeri, and she was inviting me and boyfriend to a party somewhere. So i said yes, and i think i really wanted to go, but then boyfriend interrupted and said "Wag na yan, wag ka na sumama. Ano gagawin mo dun? Makakagulo ka lang skn.... JOKE" something like that. He said joke, or was he laughing in the end, teasing me but he was serious about it. I think he just laughed so that i wont be ashamed from our guest. After that, i ignored him and just walked out of the room. I was about to cry when 2 of our friends came in the room, Theo and Minseun, and they said that Babe wanted to talk to me. I went out and we sat on the couch and he talked to me. He said that something like im too pushy on wanting to do things, that ang kapal ng mukha ko.. im really soft when this kind of things happen to me, even in real life. As you know i'm a cry baby. So i cried. I cried really hard, but after like a minute of crying he comforted me naman, saying sorry and i think he hugged me pa. When i was crying in my dream, i kept on thinking that i was gonna blog on what i feel about it. Then i woke up, crying.

It seemed so real. Really real. My dream brought up issues like his bullying me and the thing with him and his friends. Well his bullying, sometimes im still not used to it, his been like that ever since. Sometimes he's really so sweet, but there's also a period when he starts to become so bully and somehow it lasts for a while, but eventually goes back to his sweet side. Well, i guess thats him, i hope he stays on his sweet side much more often..:D hihihi hmm.. well, for his friends. Its not that he prioritizes his friends over me, but sometimes when he's with them, i think he forgets about me. I think. Sometimes, he's so hard to reach and i settle on not making kulit him when he's out with his friends.

Wala lang, for now i guess i miss spending time with him. Yes, we've been seeing each other for couple of hours in a day, but i feel like there's something missing. don't get me wrong, i always have a great time with him but there's this after feeling that something was not there. i dont know what it is. I guess i miss spending quality US time, when its just me and him and us, and where nothing else matters. Well the year's just starting, as i have said, and a lot of things have changed for us or will start to change. I know we'll get through it together. Mark my words, WE WILL. :)

-A