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SAD. One word that basically sums up what I'm feeling right now. I have been having doubts lately of my relationship with my boyfriend. I know inside of me that i love him i do. But am i happy? It makes me sad that im feeling this way when im not supposed to. How can you love someone so much and yet feel so incomplete. :( 

I dont want to let go but im barely hanging on. I feel like im on the edge and just waiting for someone or something that will make me fall apart. Namimiss ko ng kiligin. Namimiss ko ng maging masaya. Namimiss ko ung feeling ng contentment. Gusto ko mafeel maging special. Napinagkakabalahan ksi dahil lang gusto nya ako maging masaya. Hindi maging obligasyon lang.  At maging parte lang ng daily routine. Andami ko palang namimiss.:( I feel so detached lately. I wanna feel loved and i think he doesn't even feel it. I am trying so hard for the past few weeks to get over what i am feeling coz it might just be phase or a part of my mood swings. But i guess it wont go on for this long if it was just part of a mood swing. 

Ang hirap iexplain on writing kung ano ba nararamdaman ko. Basta alam ko masakit. ang bigat sa puso. Ang bigat sa dibdib.:(