Date week..:)

This was supposed to be posted last Saturday night but then i got lazy.. so here goes..:)

My boyfriend and I have been planning to go on a movie marathon date after his thesis defense. His thesis defense was scheduled last Wednesday, but then, it got cancelled. So somehow i ggot sad because our movie marathon date would be moved again. Fyi, i have been like a bum lately, my classes are only on Mondays and Wednesdays, so i got so much time on my hands. Friday, June 18, i was chatting with him on yahoo. I realized that i have nothing to do for the weekends, so ill just be stuck up watching dvds, surfing the net, reading the book or sleeping it off. Knowing that he's still doing thesis and that maybe he was busy, i pulled my mind away from our planned movie dates. But that night, i got the guts for the first time as i remember, to ask him out.

"Me: may ggwn ka tomorow?.. :) watch tyo movieeee!!! hahaha :D

Him: sge sge :)

Him: karate kid :) ?

Me: YES! haha.. un din nasa isip koo..:)"

So there!! he said yes..:) haha.. So there, i dont know how, but he really got excited with our date.. He even posted on my wall at facebook. And even after we talked and made our kulitans in ym and got that little argument of who logouts first on yahoo, he texted me his goodnight and iloveyous..:) and i slept that night with a smile on my face.:)

The next day our date day, he texted me goodmorning and reminded me on what time i should leave the house. We met up at around 11:30am at ATC. When we got there, the lines to the ticket booth where really long because of toy story 3. At 11:30am, the 12:45 time slot for toy story 3 was already sold out!! I was sooo glad we we're gonna watch Karate Kid! haha.. We bought our favorite popcorn: WHITE CHEDDAR flavor and watched the movie. The movie was great, funny and sooo cute..:) After the movie, we thought of watching A-team but the lines were still loong so we decided to go home. The car ride was fun even though its a just a short trip from ATC to my house. We kept on laughing and made kulitan. We ordered Mcdo, one of our other date food, and watched the Disney movie marathon at Disney channel namely: Toy story 2, Wall-e, and Ratatouille. Then we slept into each others arms.

Today, he passed his thesis defense and i was like hell yeah!!:) haha.. But then, he still has to finish his revisions by next week. That's fine with me! as long as i know that his almost done, i can have him all to myself.:)

These past few weeks reminded me of the week of our first date. I remembered the time when i told him that my cheeks were hurting because of him. It was because i couldn't help smiling. I was soo happy that he came into my life. And this week, it reminded me of that moment when i find myself smiling of the thought that i have someone like him who loves me. It's a feeling i would like to remember over, and over again. Sometimes i call our love a Bipolar love because there are times that he makes me feel like his caring less, and even the feeling of he doesn't care anymore, but then its times like this when he reminds me of how much he loves me. When he makes up for the unwanted feelings i felt, he makes up for it big time. And i just love the way how he does that. He erases every memory of my doubts and fears and replaces it with memories i would like to keep forever. Our relationship might not be perfect, its like a roller coaster ride in 4D, but its everything i hoped it would be.:) haha..

-A

Kinikilig ako! bakit ba?!

If i have two hearts, i will use the first one to love you,

and the other one to love you more.♥

it's been a while since iv'e posted a happy blog. So let this be one of them.:)

Today, i got a surprise visit from him. Actually, i kinda expected it even yesterday, for he kept asking me where was i, and that what time will i be home. Nonetheless, expecting and him actually coming over is different.

I was printing my chem papers, when the doorbell sounded. No one was answering, so i called ate and told her that "Ate, may taooooo.." After so, the doorbell rang again, I went to check from the terrace who it was. Actually, when the doorbell rang i really had that gut feeling that it was him, but then i kept on thinking that who'd be coming over here at this time. When i looked out from the terrace, i saw his car, and then saw him. I was suppose to call him, but then i ran back inside and acted as if i saw nothing! haha! so when he went up, i smiled and said.. "what are you doing here?..:D" yes! ganyan ka laki ung smile ko..:D haha.. He said, wala lang daw, he came from cavite and delivered some products and just thought of dropping by.

I love surprises. I really do. And this one, this is one of the things that make me love him more. Even though i expected that he was coming over, seeing him actually out there outside my house was something i never expected.:) gulo? haha!! to make it short. I LOVED THE FACT THAT HE CAME. Unplanned. Unexpected. Unforgettable. alamo ung super happy?.. ako un.:) i dont know why, but iv'e never felt this happy for a while now. It's that feeling that even after he left, i got this happy feeling that i can't take off of me. Basta yun na un! Ohh, i remember this feeling, it's like the feeling i felt way back before, when he used to surprise me when he came. I never thought i'd still feel this way again. In short, kinikilig ako! haha.. bakit ba?! haha.. Goodnight everybody!:) ay Goodmorning!:)

Happy to be in love..:)

-A

Attention

"Very little is needed to make a happy life;

it is all within yourself, in your way of thinking"

~ Marcus Aurelius

His home. After almost three weeks of being apart, we've finally seen each other again. He arrived yesterday at exactly 5:38am(as he said). After school, i went home early so that we could be able to spend some time together. And he didn't fail me with this, after he woke up from resting, he came over to my house.

We watched tv, made our kulitans, cuddling, eating our favorite date food = pizza and we fell asleep because he wasn't really feeling well. I guess it was from his trip. I missed him so much that just having him beside me was more than enough. I had fun being him. I always do! I just love spending my time, wasting time with him.

That was yesterday, and today i already miss him. It's just not the same anymore. I don't know why but when we're apart, i have a tendency to go all sad. I feel alone, feel sad, feel detached, and just i feel like i'm drifting away. There are times that he's overly sweet, caring and expressive of his love, but it never fails, that there will come a time that he makes me feel that he's starting to care less and less. Like today, I texted him good morning, he didn't reply. I just thought that maybe maybe his busy with thesis. But then i texted him again, and i told him that he wasn't texting, He replied, he said that he had no load earlier today that's why he wasn't able to reply. So i said okay, just text me when you have load na. And his reply was, he has already load na daw, nagpaload daw kasi siya. Parang ako, so kung hindi pa kita tnxt ndi ko malalaman na may load na siya. And then, i found out that he was at his friends house, making tambay. So okay, i told him to text me when his home already.

Later on, I saw him online on YM, i pm-ed him, and i asked him where he is na. And he told me his home already, uhmm.. what happened to "text me when your home na.|" soo okaaaay!! i pm-ed him once again, that i'll go out for a while, and he said okay. When i got back, he's not online anymore, and he didn't even leave me with a single message telling me what now.

Its hard, falling between the lines of understanding and demanding. It's hard, because i'm not the type of person who demands, even though i want things the other way around. And i'm also not the type of person who's pushy, that ill push myself to him. It's hard BECAUSE I WANT HIS ATTENTION so much!! I WANT IT TOO BAD..:( Even just a little of it, with love and care.

It's just a phase, it's just a phase, that's what i put in my mind. Hoping that everything will be alright. I know it will. I hope it will.:(

-A