and he said he loves me more..:)

Truly, boys and girls have different ways on viewing things.. and again, i over reacted!! haha.. well! sorry for being so emotional and vulnerable! haha.. that's how I AM!! haha.. so there..,, about the last blog.. i talked to a lot of people about it!! haha.. told yah, i was really affected!! very much! i talked to A"my kambal must i say!" haha.. her bf.. J.. and my friends bf.. another J! so go figure it out.. the lovebirds told me that i should talk to my boyfriend about it.. so did P wants me to doo.. that i should confront the bf about it.. G told me that i was just insecure about the fact that he have moved on so quickly.. just like J he also told me, not to take the "blog" thingy seriously.. then i got to talk to another J.. that is M's boyfriend!! (getz?) haha.. so there.. a lot of thanks really!! his the one who made me realize a lot of things..

anyway. why think negative? masaya nman kyo ah..

he got me there!! which is really true! wer happy.. and why am i thinking so negative! haha!! ow men!! all those worries agen for nothing!! rawr! haha.. and also J explained to me how guys move on so fast!! haha!! thanks a bunch J!! i owe you big time!! so there,, somehow i confronted him about it.. and somehow he told me stuff i wanted to know.. some.. haha.. coz he said.. some are private na daw!! let it be!! boys!! haha..

after that!! guess what! haha.. TUMAKAS AKO ULET! haha.. i told my parents that i would be attending a meeting yesterday!! there's a meeting nmn tlga ea! haha.. we went to moa with his friends!! the fun part pa was!! my parents were the one who would fetch me from school! haha.. that's the thrill! so i have to text my parents driver pa na.. he should text me.. if my parents are going to moa.. and if they're going back to la salle na! haha.. ooh.. so there.. we met up at moa na.. met her friends flim/m.i. and lousy (couple din cla)..haha.. we ate at wendy's then tambay sa by the bay!!haha.. the night sky! tapos christmas songs!! i felt that it was my early Christmas gift! really happy having to spend time with him agen!! then kuya called me! and told me that he'll fetch me na daw.. buti nlng nagpadaan sila muma sa seaside!! haha.. so si kuya lang nagsundo sken..and sa moa na niya ako diretso sinundo! haha so there!! tapos.. there. so we where texting. and then out of nowhere suddenly he texted me..

haha! Kelan ulet tayo magkkta. :( miss na kta bebe.

exact words.. i got the feeling that maybe this guy really do loves me!! hello! we just saw each other few hours ago and then he wants to see me na ulet! haha,, and then i smiled!! :D like that! haha!! so there.. i told him that i was kinda busy and all..:c i would like to see him but i just can't because i have responsibilities to attend to.. and im happy he understood me.. :)then we said our goodnyts.. his text:

Nanayt bebe ko i love you more bebe ko. u(ung u na smiley sa text)..

and boom! He made me smile agenn..:D LIKE THAT! haha.. sometimes girls love to tell their special love ones that we are the ones who love guys more than they love us.. but truly,, its always a comfort and an assurance and what the heck! one of the most wonderful thing to know and feel that your special love one still claims that he loves you more than you do! this is a fact guys! i tell you! haha.. tapos out of nowhere pa toh!! so parang sobrang... AWWW!! ow men!! his one heck of a boyfriend!! haha..

so there.. today.. i got to stay in school till 730 because of again a responsibility i have to attend to.. a two day convention that our organization will be assisting!! 1600 participants! ow men! anyweiz.. so there.. i was really tired and harassed because of a lot more things to do! then, the boyfriend tole me that before i go home.. i should drop by muna sa DAMPA.. because his family will eat there.. tehn i told him that i looked harassed na nga.. tapos i was wearing shorts pa! nahihiya nmn ako sa parents niya! haha..so there.. i decided to drop by na din! xempre nmn! haha.. so there.. i got to stay there only for a few minutes.. kxe nga.. i should be heading home na.. her mom was insisting that i should eat na rin daw dun! kaso i really have to go nga.. kxe nde ako nagpaalam.. and then the boyfriend told her mom na hindi nga daw ako nagpaalam! haha.. tapos her mom was wondering why i was there?.. eh hindi nga ako nagpaalam diba! haha.. so i told her mom.. na i came from school and DAMPA was just on the way so i decided to drop by! haha..:D s o there.. ay weyt! nung hinahatid niya na ako sa car.. my fireworks sa may sm sucat!! "i thought! that was my chance to watch fireworks with him!" pero watta! nde maganda venue! amoy isda! haha!! moment over! SPOILED! haha.. but weh! at least i got to see him agen!! and guess what! he was wearing the shirt i gave him!! "TAFT GUYS BLEED GREEN" shirt!! haha

WELL! WELL! WELL!! that's twice in a week!! for the record!

I AM HAPPY!:D LIKE THAT!!:D

-A

i got scared..:c

YesterNYT.. i got to do my 10 page paper for tredfor class about "MARRIAGE".. (thanks G for the help! haha) and fyi! nafreecut class nmn dun kanina! haha.. so there.. the boyfriend was asking me wat i want for my married life... i said i dont know actually.. then i got the nicest idea... i told himm...

i want my married life to be with you...

haha.. so there.. at first he said that its soo baduy.. but then he said he smiled! haha(KINILIG?!).. haha.. then right there and then it left us talking about our future.. coz i asked him how he wants his future married life to be.. he said.. he just wants two kids and that we will be leaving in tagytay.. and i teased him.. how would i make that fit in a two page paper!! haha.. then he said i should write about my dream wedding..,, he said his was us to be married by a beach setting and he wants it to be simple.. i told him.. i want to be married in tagytay.. then he said na.. beach daw kxe maganda daw pakingan ung waves! haha.. sbi ko pano yan 2 venue naten! then he said?.. that we should have two weddings! the wedding in tagaytay would be the formal wedding,, while the weddingby the beach would be "testing lang".. wat the! haha

so there.. when i woke up.. i woke up scared.. lets be honest.. people in relationships who talk about their plans for the future often leads to break up.. it got me scared that we might be leading there.. so there.. somehow the feeling passed.. by noon time.. he was pursuing that we should see each other.. i dont know why really..,, lately,, his been like that.. as if,, out of the blue he wants us to date! weird right! then.. here goes.. it started agenwhen he told me to read one of his post in FS.. titled "a pic of mg gf..:)".. (freaky ung post! scary! haha) then when i read his other post.."emo no more..".. i felt scared agen.. these are the questions he answered that agen made me wonder..:c

13. Ano babaguhin mo sa past mo para mas maging masaya buhay mo ngayon?

- January 18 2006 , sorry na.

my comment: i dont know whats with this date. really.. ahmm.. xempre naginvestigate ako! january 18 was seniors o6 batch cheering practice! oh dba galing!! i remmebered it was the day after dramafest.. dramafest was the day that he asked me at the multi purpose hall if kme daw ni R.. tapos pag ka yes ko.. umalis sya.. then,, december 07.. pinaalala niya sken ung incident na un.. he was suppose to court me daw.. kaso.. un nga nalmn niya na kme ni R! so wats the purpose na magcourt pa xa eh my bf na ako.. so my question is!! ano tong JANUARY 18, 2006, sorry na. drama??!!

21. Ano o sino ang nagpapastress sayo ngayon?

- sya.

my comment: sino? ako?

22. Para sayo, kailangan ba ng GF/BF para sumaya?

- nope kelangan mo lng ng tropa.

my comment: hmm.. okei pagbigyan! pero may gf xa dba.. cen he at least mn lang say yes for me!

23. Magbanggit ng 5 tao na malaki naging impact sa buhay mo..

- Abby , Kat , Jesus Christ , Mama , Papa.

my comment: no comment sa 2nd name!

25. Sa tingin mo, ilan nagkakagusto sayo ngayon?(dapat magbigay ng #, kahit estimate lang)

- 1 = Abby

my comment: ow well!

28. Isang tao na iiyakan mo kapag sumakabilang buhay na? =c

- Abby :(.

my comment: no comment..

im shaking right now.. my hands are shaking while typing..:(oh.. my bumalik sken na nagbobother sken nun.. i remember na.. naging sila ni K(ex niya) march 06something.. and he said 1yr and 6 months sila.. so if you count that,,, nagbreak sila.. september 07!.. eh, we started going out 1st week october o7!:( wat thus this say really.. im starting to get scared and be paranoid na..:( its hard.. naiisip ko panakip butas lang ako..:( i want to cry..:(

-A

first pay.. the visit..

first pay..

So, basically i got my first pay..haha.. first pay meaning.. its something that i really worked hard for.. ung tipong napagod tlaga ako! haha its from the rihanna & chris brown concert! imagine.. for almost 13 hours we were at the fort. and for 6 almost 6 hours we were standing up to usher people evry now and then! so, the next morning my whole body and legs where so tired!! damn!! but the good side was i got to watch the concert for free!! and that's hell yeah better than anything else! haha someday, i want job like this.. a job that i really want to do,, but xempre HIGHER WAGE dbaa! haha

the visit. .

so first i would start up, nung sunday.. nako.. he was like all drama.. he really wanted to see me.. he kept insisting that i should not go to the concert and just have a date with him instead! haha.. sometimes he is really weird! there are times that i feel that its really okay that we dont see each other that often.. but then,, just like last sunday! there are times when as if he is craving for me that much!! ooohh i like! haha!! but still, i ended up going to the concert and him going back to his sleep! haha.. anyweiz.. so there.. i think he really missed me! yesterday.. on my way to skul.. we wer texting and all that.. he was teasin me coz i was late for my class agen! haha.. so there.. then he told me not to go to class anymore so that ill just o to his school and spend time with him! so i said!!

"parang ang lapit ng taft sa bene ahh!!"

haha.. then he replied!

"ay 7 hours pla break ko ngaun! want mo punta ako dyan?"

haha.. so syempre!! OF COURSE!! DUH!! syempre I WAAAAAAAANT!! haha.. so un nga.. buti nlng my last class was free cut.. so i was out around 1250.. tapos i tot early dismissal kme for my lab class.. kaso dami pla pinapagwa.. so around 1230 ill be out..haha.. wer suppose to eat lunch then watch a movie.. kso kulang sa time.. so nde natuloi.. tmby muna xa kela bufi until malpit na ako magout.. so there.. we met up at 10q agen! haha.. tapos went to the car.. and waited for jess.. haha.. sby daw xa ea.. haha.. i was kinda full coz i ate doritos with minute maid.. so i told him, ill just eat from the drive thru at macapagal.. so there.. on are way home.. kulitan and kwentuhan and stuff. haha.. we were suppose to make tamby sa bhay... then i asked him.. what are we gonna do there.. he said watch tayo movie.. i told him.. thta the tv and dvd player are in my room where my mom and dad stays.. and when we get home.. will just stay at our mini sala! so i just told him to go home! so he could rest..hehe.. and said nect time nlng when everythings quite well finished na with our house!.. haha

so ayun.. somehow, i like everything thats going on with our relationship.. no! i loove it! haha... ohh.. i just heard that P & M just broke up.. also R & J..!! then i realized.. everyones almost breaking up..and im really glad we aren't.. maybe this time around we really are mature now.. haha!! well, i think we are!

-A

first time..

there's always a time for a first time.. haha.. so here goes..

i just got home from the fort.. came from a meeting coz guess wat!!? ill be ushering at the chris brown & rihanna concert!! but weyt there's more.. i would be ushering at the PLATINUM side.. which is basically the place thats in front of the stage!! ohh.. i love it!! haha.. so there.. on my way home.. the bf told me that he would be going to bf resort coz his friend will be treating them.. so i said okey.. when i got home.. he asked me if i wanted to go where his at... and then i heard that my parents just left.. abah! nagdate nanmn!! haha.. they went to atc to watch quantum!!(mas updated pa sila sa movies kesa sken).. so i got the most brilliant idea!!

that i would leave ryt there and then to go to him.. and then.. just when my parents would be calling so that kuya would fetch them,, ill go home na..

ooh it was the most brilliant plan!! haha.. so there.. at first i hesitated xempre!! bka mahuli ako ea.. haha!! but what the heck!! haha.. so there.. i went there.. and then.. met his friends and all.. tamang tambay lang.. wen after 15-20 minutes, my dad texted!! nagpapasundo na sila!! haha..so there.. told him i have to leave na.. so i did..^^ fudge!! i wanted to stay pa!!!

first time.. ohh i loove.. haha.. this was the very first time that i sneaked out while my parents are here in manila!!! what a feeling!! i didn't get caught! haha.. well.. it was worth it!! exciting! plus the feeling a of having to be with him!!haha.. and i know nothing will ever beat that!! wat a happy, great day!! 11.15.o8.. till here!! ilovehimmuch!

-A

and he said i miss you..:(

well.. as i have said.. i myt be overreacting and stuff.. and yes i was! haha.. he texted agad the morning after i blogged. well.. haha!! sorry for it.. but still.. i still stand my point.. one text wouldn't hurt! period. haha...

so there.. i just got home from laguna.. i interviewed my friends sister's boyfriend..(gETZ? haha).. washed up.. then went online.. at first his stat was something about his class tommorow.. how terrified he was that he would be having a 6hour ACCOUNTING CLASS..(so gets why he was terrified?! haha).. then.. we wer chatting the usual.. when.. he changed his profile to:

i miss you..:(

OH! weyt! haha.. last nyt.. he was offline already when i checked my profile.. and someone named anton messaged me.. here goes..

anton wants to brighten your day with a smile. Check out anton's profile and send a reply. A message from anton: Hey I saw your profile and you're pretty cute and interesting. I was thinking maybe you and I are alike, otherwise decent people who want to get naughty every now and then. Anyway I want to put some excitement in my life and I wanna try new things, maybe you'd be up for a discreet fling? i come from a good family and a good school, was a model and a ball player and above all I don't kiss and tell.As indecent as this sounds, I'm a pretty decent guy in general,I just wanna explore my wild side, live a little.Above all this woul just be between you and me. Maybe you could leave your number so we could talk about it cutie.

at first i freaked out..and then i laughed! haha so there.. so i was wondering if i would tell the bf about it.. then me and G got an idea!! that telling this to my boyfriend will hopefully make him JEALOUS!! so i did!! we wer laughing our hearts out. imagining how he would react.. and then there. i read his reply just a while ago and he said..

eww ang pervert naman nun

haha.. wat a reaksyon noh!! damn! ahaha!! anyweiz.. back to my story!!so i PMed him...

A: you miss me?.. me? me? me?....
E: nope ung mga chix ko
E: xempre ikaw !
E: sinu pa ba?
E: alangan naman si ate jan sa bahay nio ?!
E: si kuya driver pwede pa
A: haha.. malay ko ba!! haha..
A: I MISS YOU TOOOOOOOOO!!!
A: haha.. sbi ko na nga ba ea!! may lihim kaying relasyon!

haha.. he is such a gay man! haha.. ganyan kme maglambingan.. etoh pa!

E: i love you bebe
E: pero konti lng
A: love you too diddy..!! sapak!
E: joke lng
E: madameng madame
E: parang stars sa sky
A: haha!! sapakin kitaaaa ea!!
E: sand sa beach
A: haha... chessy moo!! but i lab it! haha
A: haha!!
E: at jerbaks sa inidoro
E: umalesh kna nga!! too much na!
A: haha!!
E: bwahahahaha
A: eyakk!!

haha!! again!!! thats how sweet my boyfriend is.. at first he will really be cheesy and all.. you'll feel flattered.. and just when the feeling starts to linger.. he'll crush all of it and you'll end up laughing your ass out.. haha.. i dont even know how we keep our relationship this strong.. well.. i guess.. its not always about how serious the talk is... its how deep you feel about the other person you love.. haha.. *weird and cheesy!!*

-A

losing grip..

I've been waiting for the right time to blog this, but i guess i got fed up today.. i was hesitating to blog because i might just be over reacting and all.. i just have some questions to ask..

-pag ba walang cp or cgnal, hindi tlga kayo guys magtetext?
-bawal ba makitext?
-kht magparamdam lang?

well, for a little background.. his classes started monday., so somehow.. everything changed back the way it used to be.. less text.. i think for the fact na..

nasasanay nnmn xang kasama siguro mga friends niya..

den,, i thought.. that un nga.. maybe i was just over reacting and all.. kaso.. yesterday.. he PMed me at ym.. that his phone was broke.. it got wet because of the gawd damn rain! so okei.. i understand.. he even emphasized that he wouldn't be able to text or call.. so until now.. na-dah! no hi's no hoe's.. even ym or any other way! as in.. NA-DAH! but why?.. if i was in his condition ill find a way.. just to text him.. even for a while or what..:c here we go again.. i think its starting agian.. im starting to slip off and be out of his life again.. and AGAIN im starting to feel that he doesn't need me in his life..:,c

goodbye kisses..

Why is it like that?.. nothing beats kissing the one you love! haha.. (not in the sense na torrid ha!)

Sometimes, smacks and stolen kisses mean more than torrid(wattaword! sorry dont know how to use it in any other way! haha) kisses.! oh,, i take it back! smacks and stolen kisses MEAN WAY MUCH more than torrid kisses!! haha.. so you might be wondering wat the hell happend that led me to blogging these cheesy goeey things?! haha,, well,, amm.. it was our monthsary last nyt! 6th monthsary to be exact!

So aun! funny thing pa was.. i tot he forgot about it! kaso i blew his cover! haha!! he was suppose to buy me gift kaso nabuking ko sya! surprise daw dapt! haha!! so aun.. we didnt see each other. coz i was busy with skul and org stuff yesterday.. (nagparty sa WAREHOUSE135) pinayagan nmn niya ako ea! haha.. that's one good thing about our relationship.. its getting to do things that we want with limitations den nmn.. hehe..

anyweiz, the big thing was.. today, Nov 9, 08.. nagkita kme. pero super sglit lang. haha.. kxe dumaan sya dito sa bahy para idaan ung pasalubong niya sken,,(he went to malaysia dba.. ) it was a cute white singapore(duman sila sa singapore) merlion sufftoy^^ when he gave the pasalubong and his ipod(nagpapalagay ng songs) to ate. he left agad.. d ko naabutan.. galing kxe ako sa taas.. huwaaa!! kxe he was with his kuya kya ngmamadali siya.. they're going to ruins.... i didn't even get to see him! rawr!! i was kinda dissapointed! coz once he told me that he was dropping by.. i was eager to see him! haha,,

so there,, i tot. un na un. . kaso.. he texted again.. and said that he would drop by again.. to get his ipod na.. ayun. so i waited for him na tlga.. aun! haha,, he txted and went to the gate to personally give him his ipod.. and then he said he nids to go na rin,, kxe nga his kuya was waitng,, and then

*smack*

SORRY!! its soo cheessy of me!! well, that's what this blog is for right!! express things you want to say! haha!! so there.. i mean it.. Smacks and stolen kisses are those moments(kisses) that are sometimes the ones that are unforgetable!.. a kiss in the forehead. a kiss in the cheek.. a smack.. a peck on the neck. a kiss on the ear.. simple, short but its the ones that lasts and lingers for a long time...;)

-A

Flattery beomes cheesy!

Girls love to be praised on how they look. They want to hear that their pretty and sexy? haha.. But when you start to have a boyfriend, its as if you don't need to here it from them anymore.. sometimes its just a given fact.. know why?.. because its how they make you feel it.. even without saying it! its like being the prettiest and most beautiful girl in the whole world in his eyes. haha;)) but sometimes, when they say it to you.. you become more prettier that pretty! more beautiful than ever.. haha

so aun nga.. we wer chatting knina.. and then out of nowhere...:

E: ang pretty naman ng baby ko
E: i love you baby ko
E: hahah
A: abahabah!! at nanlambing paa. haha!!
E: hende kea 22o naman e ohhh
E: im looking at ur picture !

EXACT WORDS! haha.. nagulat ako.. out of nowhere ba nmn kxe,. this was a serious talk by the way!(serious na yan!) haha.. ayun.. guilty as charge! im FLATTERED! who wouldn't be?.. haha.. he doesn't usually say those things to me.. praise me and all.. were always teasing each other of nasty things and stuff. haha.. most of my friends know that! (ganun kme maglambing! sweet noh!)haha... but this.. this is worth blogging! haha!! its more touching coz somehow i knew he meant it. ..

It's a given fact that we girls always want to be best looking for our boyfriends and all.. but sometimes we just dont care on how we look with them coz we know they love us no matter what.. and for them, saying that we are pretty means a lot.. its like the man you love appreciates your womanhood in a sense you feel beautiful in and out^^! haha(deep)

People in relationships s sometimes takes things for granted.. but what they don't know is that,,little things done or said can mean a lot!!.. just like by saying to your girlfriend she looks pretty..^^ little thing yet means alot..^^ and worth a million butterflies and rainbows in girls' tummy... haha.. it absolutely made my day!

-A

unexpected

Nov. 4, 2008!

FINALLY!!

as we say.. expect the unexpected..

So, before i start to spill everything, here's the start. i woke up todai.. expecting SOOO NOTHING!!.. i had no hope that i would be seeing him todai.. so went to class., film viewing on my first class, then, biopsychology lab class was light and all.. that's when he texted me.. he was complaining about the slow processing in his school of assesment and cards! "oo! BENE tlga!" so there,, so usual replies was done.. not really in the mood in texting him.. when.. he said that "pano na yan.. want mo sm nlng tayo?" thats when it occurred to me that the plan, of him coming to taft.. was still there.. he was just not sure if he could come on time for my dismissal..;) sooo there.. new plans were made.. would be seeing him at sm for a movie and all..

around 4:30 we met at national.. then went to bpi to deposit money(sa knya un,, not mine) so there, we wer kinda debating wat to watch! he wants to watch hsm3!(ahaha! weird).. i want to watch my only you!;).. but the problem was.. i already watched hsm3.. and he has already watched my only you! haha.. so we decided to watch The House Bunny!! haha!(funny movie!! ankulet as in).. we wer suppose to eat dinner after kaso my mom wasn't replying.. i said i'll be home around 6 or 7.. ea almost 8 na yun... hehe.. so we went our seperate ways na din after the movie.. ay nagikotikot pa pala muna kme pto window shop for his ipod.. then went to buy chicharon for mom! (tamang suhol!) haha!! so ayun!! went home naa^^

*luckily my mom didn't get mad! haha.. she even teased me.. and called E popcorn,, coz he wasnt able to treat me for dinner!! haha.. sbi ng mom ko..

"Ano ba yan!? magaaya magdate tapos d ka papakainin!? popcorn lang!"

haha.. i was laughing my heart out and blamed her coz she wasn't really replying and we thought he was kinda mad or nagtatampo! haha

so there.. heres the cheesy part! haha..
watching the movie in his arms.. as i have said! felt...

FOREVER!.. :D

it has been a long time when i felt that feeling. and im really happy to have felt that feeling again!(tongue twister? haha) but kiding aside, its worth it..^^ makes me wonder.. bkt ganun.. when you guys are far away from each other or don't see each other that often (literally not often ha).. problems starts.. worries come.. but then,, when you start seeing each other again.. all those things just start to fade away.. felt like it was just nothing and realized that you have just wasted time on thinking about those things!! nothing beats the feeling of having to be with him! HIS my HAPPY PLACE(quote in quote, breaking dawn ata!) HIS MY FOREVER!

so there.. feeling expressed!;) oooh.. i soo love blogging!! haha..
hope these HAPPY feeling wont fade again....

I LOVE HIM.. i know i do.. i feel it..

-A

the first blog.

Blogging as we all know is one way of expressing our feelings and thoughts, those inner ones. Ones that we cannot say out loud because we are afraid of hurting some peoples' feelings. But it sucks big time not to release those feelings. It burns inside. It feels really really bad. You wanna shout, run, and cry out loud just to be able to let it all out..

So why blog here, when there's friendster, multiply etc. Why here?.. well, this is where i know he won't be able to find and read my blogs most especially my thougths. this one specific person that my blogs would most often be about for the past few months or years i think?.. haha assuming. Everyone's name would be in codes! so go figure it out!;)

So, here's the very first blog that would be all about him and surely me..

for some background:
i'll call my self A..;)_
19y.o. from the south..
typical girl next door(must i say) haha..
My boyfriend.. courted me for almost 7 months.
may 8. that's our date;)
so here goes,,

We were sorta kinda high school sweethearts. had a past thing.. i dumped him when he courted me in highschool(rude of me!).. so there.. he came back to my life last year.. 2007, which i can say one of the best days of my life..

i just came out of a bad relationship last april 2007, one that really sucked me off my life big time. and when he came into my life, he made me feel that i can be loved just the way i am,, no worries, no doubts,, Oct. 6, 7, & 8.. those were our first few days together that we were so happy.. hindi pa kme nun ha.. hehe.. so ayun.. Our courting days(must i say..) made me really feel happy and felt the wonder of being loved and by loving him in my ways. he was really somethng huh! haha..

so May 8.. was the day me and him became US. there.. we sere doing fine.. we see each other constantly, spend time together. and have loads of happy time.. having to spend time with him always feel im in FOREVER.. my nightmares came when my parents started to renovate our house. ..

starting august we were not able to see each other that often. he wont come to our house because we have no sala.. so that leaves to the option in spending our time in our rooms. but he wont agree to that, becasue my parents are here. Another problem is that, i can't ask permission from my parents that i would be going out with him.. because it will all just lead to:

"bkt lalabas pa kayo? pwede nmn dito sa bahy.."

so.. ayoko nmn na sumama tingin nila sknya dba.. hai..so ayun.. nagkikita kme pero minsan for 5 minutes lang kxe super takas lang or wat,, it was really hard kxe for me,, i really wanna spend more time with him.. and miss spending time with him... sobraa..:c tapos ang point ko pa.. if he really wants to see me.. or be withme.. gagawa nmn xa ng paraan dba.=c but that's only if he wants too..=c

so aun.. dame pa nangyari eversince..,, we fought over him, spending more time with his friends over me,, and a lot more.. and also.. just before i went home to our province he just came from malaysia nga pla.. he was gone for 6 days..
so aun, ill start the recent happenings in our life..

Yesterday, i was on my way home from our province to manila.. SO we wer texting and all.. then i was realy happy when he insisted that we watch a movie wen i get home.. so meaning today,.. i was really happy.. finally he thought of having to spend time with me! YES! so i told him,, ill ask permission first from my mom.. so i was really really really excited and all.. but, last nyt, i wasn't able to ask permission coz my mom had a realy hot head bcoz of our helpers. so this morning i asked permission from my mom(which by the way i think is the really hard to do).. and she said yes! so i was really happy and excited fro our upcoming date! but then, he wasn't replying.. i txtd and txtd him.. but he ddn't reply.. around lunch time.. he txted saying he doesn't have load.. so that's why!? so me, being the understanding girlfirend.. said okey.. and pretended that nothing happend.. so there.. i asked if "tuloi kme".. tapos ang rep niya.. "what time labs mo tom? hehe".. "gusto mo puntahan nlng kita sa skul mo tom"..parang ako!! WTH?! nagpaalam pa ako for todai! tapos ganun! so ayun.. being the understanding gf ulet! cge okei lang.. hai.. so aun.. hoping na bukas lng kme magkikitaa...

kanina.. sa ym.. i asked him if he would be goint to taft tom.. as what he said kanina.. sby "pupunta ako skul tom ea,. kuha ng card and clearance".. parang ako.. WTH?! ulet! hai... and now i can really say IM TIRED OF HOPING IN SEEING HIM AGAIN.. because nothing happens.. i hope, feel happy and excited and where does that leads me.. NOWHERE...:c and that sucks big time.. must i say.:c

so there goes.. that's all for todai..
i posted it here kxe.. i dont want him to read it.. there's this instance kxe na nagblog ako and nabasa nya.. and he took it the wrong way.. i just wanted to let it all out.. and i don't mean to offend him or hurt him by chance.. so ayan..

-A