dont become bitter, become BETTER!

Today.. super i was sabaw..:( 2 hours of sleep because of learpsy paper.. tapos exam ko pa rin dun..:( so super sabaw nung exam ko..:( so today.. super nagreflect ako about us..:( wala lang.. ansaket sket pa din..:(

Napisip lang ako.. na maybe hindi niya na tlga maging ung taong minahal ko..:( sbi ko nga kay edj.. i dont deserve this..:( sbi niya yes you dont.. but mas d mo deserve magstay sknya, if he knows that he cnt do anything about it na, kc ayaw n nya gwn ung dpt..:( hai.. when she told me that.. napaisip ako! true dba?.. mas d ko deserve magstay wer i wont be appreciated..:( oh well. pero sad pa rin ako whole day..:( He texted me pa during p6 lec. na why did pum ask about kung ay thing sila nung girl. haha. sarap sbhin na. eh kxe nmn noh! haha.. pero anyweiz.. i just told him na.. my friends reactions are beyond my control. and hindi ko nmn dndamy ung girl.:) so ayun.. paguwe ko he txted me about theo.. tapos sbi ko nga na bka tom kme punta ni zarah.. ayun.

while i was online knina he pmed me..: ayan..

Mark Paul Terrazola: wat time pala kayo punta bukas
*ah-ah*: im not sure ea. i havent talked to zarah yet pa. ill text her siguro mamaya.
Mark Paul Terrazola: 2 lng kayo punta ?
*ah-ah*: ndi ko alam ea. pero sya plang nkkpusap ko. haha.. the boys will go ata on friday. lala and pum are at ateneo pa. kya aun. ewan ko kung sino pa ksby nmn tom.
Mark Paul Terrazola: dinelete mo ko sa ym mo ?
*ah-ah*: oo..:D haha.. sorry.. bitter. :D inadd na kita ulet oh..:) di na bitter..
Mark Paul Terrazola: ok ok
*ah-ah*: sorry.. :( :)
Mark Paul Terrazola: u dont have to :D
*ah-ah*: okay.:)

f.y.i. binura ko sya kahapon sa ym ko! haha.. kxe nman nahuhurt ako ea! sorry! tao lang! so ayun.. inadd ko sya ulet.. friends na kme ulet sa ym. haha

Kanina i asked geyb. do you think he still loves me? sbi ni geyb yes daw, but he just doesnt want me to get hurt.. he also said na.. he also thinks na he misses me.. and things like that. For me, its a good feeling to know that even though we chose to go different ways we still care.. that he still cares for me..:(

sbi ko kay geyb knina.. when i woke up from my hapon sleep. i woke up sad.. kxe naalala ko ung times na.. pagkagising ko katai ko na xa.. not knowing na he'll be there pla.. ung mga ganun.. surprises na gngwa niya for me.. namagpopop up nlng sya dito sa bhy..:( i just miss the old times..:(

another thing to blog about today is that,, ung sinabi ni ate pao

"DONT BECOME BITTER, BECOME BETTER!"

super nastruck ako dyan.. true,,ayoko na maging bitter. actually i want us to be friends.. we went through a lot.. and we are too good people who loves each other.. sayang un noh! haha.. so ayun.. one step at a time..:) i will be okay..:) its okay to be sad.. its okay to miss him.. but someday i will be okay!:) i know i wil..:)

-A