just blogging..

We say Love can conquer all. Love is reason enough to stay with the person you love. That with Love, pain can fade away. Love means never having to say you're sorry. Love can make you see beyond the person's imperfections. You stand by that person. You try with your every will to fight for that person. You find ways to protect him from all the judgement people can give him. and just like what Marge in The Simpsons movie said to Homer:

"i did all that because....... that's it.. i just can't find the words to complete that line anymore.."

or something like that!!

Sometimes no matter how much we love a person, the only way to lessen the pain we feel is to let goo.. to fall away.. to take different paths.. even though it hurts.. and just sometimes.. when you find yourself.. you can always find your way back to the person who you really love. Its just about making the decision, following your heart and making it happen. we go astray to find something, to find clarity. and when we find that reason, we find contentment despite all the flaws and shortcomings.. telling ourselves that, IT WAS WORTH IT!:)

I will now move forward.. agen as i have said.. but this time it is for real!! I want to move on.. because i dont want to be left here stuck, hanging, breaking, and falling apart. I want to move on.. because on moving on.. i would learn to love and take care of myself again.. magpapakaselfish muna ako!:) haha.. and when he comes back, if he decides to.. then thank you superfriend for he has chosen to stand by what he feels. but if not, i wont be broken.. because i have started to move forward and will just continue doing so..

I love him.. I still do.. No matter what other people say. My love for him.. it will alwas be something that i cannot forget. He made me happy to the highest level., so far.. :) He has showed me and made me feel loved in so many ways. I want him back.. but i need more than his words,, his actions, his feelings.. I NEED CLARITY.. something that right now.. he just couldnt give me.. all i need is for me to hear him say..

"I LOVE YOU.. IM SORRY. I WANT YOU BACK. IM GONNA FIX THIS. IM GONNA FIX MYSELF FOR US. FOR YOU AND FOR ME"..

but i guess.. his not ready yet. but no matter how much i love him and how much i want him back.. I just can't weyt forever. How much more? how long will it take for him to be strong enough/ to be man enough to find the will to be that person who would be willing to love me again. and that someone who would never be confused again.. i guess we all get to that point where we get used to all of it.. but its just up to us.. on how we handle it right.?

The only pain that i know will hurt me once in a while is that.. When i see couples,, i would always ask myself..

HOW COME THEY CAN MANAGE TO STAY TOGETHER THROUGH EVERYTHING. FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSE.. WHILE MY MAN CAN'T..:(

-A