Still.

August 29, my last blog.. that very same night, He said that he has made up his mind that he loves me.. Walang kasikasi. walang peropero...:| But sadly.. He said that he can't take the awkardness with my family and stuff..:( agen i got dissapointed.:( Isn't his love for me enough for him to be courageous to face my parents, ask sorry and prove them that they're wrong.:(

Days after, its like we wer friends agen.. Night before my trip to Fontana with my blockmates.. He called me baby, and this is where all the courting started.. "courting"..

I feel happy when he talks to me and when i talk to him. its like.. still having to express my love for him even though hindi kme.. I know that we still both love each other, another fact is we're both still not ready to be in a relationship. Its hard that wer like this, cos we dont where wer going,, especially me.. i have no assurance. So i just need to look out for myself.. and that's what im doing..

Right now, I actually want to be here.. coz honestly i still do love him.. i miss him.. i still want him.. but im not ready.. im scared.. But i know, where i am right nowm i am happy here..:) even though i know that its really really risky.. coz i can be hurt again.. But there's also a possibility that i can be happy..:)

Today, my mom.. said dat i shouldn't answer empol again coz his just gonna hurt me..:( but for me.. She doesnt know the real story behind us. What really happened. and

its not right for them to judge him. for all they know, he is one of the person who made my life really worthliving even though it was just for a while.

He really made me happy in so many ways. And tonyt, i told him about it..:( i guess it was a wrong move but i also think its time for him to know.. Sooner or later he'll find out that my parents are what we say a little bit mad, or just maybe too dissapointed at him..:( it will be really hard for him to earn my parents back..

But honestly, ill be here full support for him.. Coz i want to be with him..:| and i want him to prove my parents that we can make it work. that wat happened between us, is just a part of it,, and we can make it through.

I just hope that he doesn't lose the will to fight for me.. I hope that he wouldnt give up on me.. on US.. Coz honestly, i think we can make this work... only if we try.. and not give up..:) oh well.. as the cliche goes..

WE CAN ALWAYS HOPE FOR THE BEST.

-A