Who ever knew that we can be this happy again.? finding comfort in him.. finding my happy place in his arms was everything that made everything so well. I missed the feeling of being with him.. being able to be loved by him.. and most specially being happy with him.. like nothing else matters but us. and hoping that it wont end. but sometimes i find myself wandering how long this will last? how long we will be this magical? how long can we keep it up?..
Last night i started reading(thanks to apple niedo!:)) Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus.. It has been a long time that i have been looking for this book, and last wednesday waffle gave me an ebook copy of it. BUT I STILL REALLY REALLY WANT A HARD COPY OF THIS..:D Anyways, Introduction plang NAIYAK na ko..:) haha!! i dont know why,, but the intro was something that's really true.. in a middle of fight.. a hug.. a kiss.. a really really tight hug would make everything go away..
quoted from the book: She said, "John Gray, you're a fair -weather friend! As long as I'm sweet, loving Bonnie you are here for me, but as soon as I'm not, you walk right out that door."..I find this line very true. why is it that when we are loving or must i say both of us our loving and sweet.. We tend to stay.. but once we blow our fuse, we fight, we contradict, we ALL try to walk away. and just say that we're not compatible. its simple as that.. and another line from the book that answers this one is..
"Love is magical, and it can last, if we remember our differences."again, very true!:) LOVE is truly magical.. It sweeps us all from our feet and sometimes out of no reason at all we smile, because amidst everything we go thru everyday, its knowing that someone that we love is loving us back. And nothing can get better than that..:) That's the difference when you're single and in a relationship. Being single: you wake up finding the courage to face everyday by yourself, but being in a relationship: you wake up smiling, cause you know no matter what happens thru your day there's someone out there loving you and who'll be with you in everything you do..:)
Jan 8, it's our supposedly 20th monthsary.. I guess, its still considered that we are in our 20th.. cause i know we didn't stop loving each other.. maybe we just stopped showing it for a while because of all the pain and distance that we felt.. but what matters most is behind all that we really didn't stop loving.
And then again, i know one day, it will come a time that all these cheeziness and sweetness would not really fade away, but will be lessen. I know it will come, and honestly, im scared of that day. I want everything to stay like this forever. but it just can't..:( but one thing i know, everything might be lesser from what it was before, but his love for me wouldn't change. i hope so.:) oh well, i trust him.:) i love him so much, that i'm afraid to lose him again. and also i am so afraid to show him and always tell him that i love him..:( it's because i'm afraid he'd take it for granted..:( i know i shouldn't be thinking about this..:( but i can't help myself.. i love him i do.. very much.. and i hope he sees that.. i hope he knows the meaning of how much i love him..:(
I'm scared, and i know nothing can take this away, i just have to be strong and have faith in him. have faith in us. and just hope that everything that happened and will happen is for a reason..:) For now, come what may.. I'm happy, day by day something changes but who could stop change? we can only go with its flow and accept it..:)
-A
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