Scared

Sometimes i find myself strong. I see myself strong enough to let go.. Strong enough to be alone.. Far better off single.. but then it came to me.. maybe im not..:( and now im finding myself scared..:( i think the reason why i find the courage to be strong enough to let go is that.. i dont want to be left anymore..:( its like

"uunahan ko na xa, bago niya ako iwan.."..

maybe its wrong, but when i think of the moment he'll tell me that once again, HE's LOST AGAIN, CONFUSED.. it will really break my heart into pieces..:( because the moment i know he decides to give up on us it will hurt my heart like hell.. so im giving up on us first before he does..:(

As of right now, im waiting for him to tell me he wants to stay with me.. im not asking him to totally change himself.. i myself is not perfect.. but i try my best to walk my side of the bridge for him..

and maybe that's the only thing i need to know right now.. that he'll try to for me..:(

and now, im scared that he'll give up just because he's tired of trying..:( i dont know how i can take that.:( knowing he gave up because he got tired of trying will hurt the hell out of me.. and its scaring the hell out of me right now..:(

-A